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2010-08-26T13:19:00.000-07:00

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The Lioness is back..... with great news!

2010-08-11T15:42:00.000-07:00

Hello my lovelies :)

Since my last post things have been a little hectic.... in a good and productive way. Working on my future and my brand with management; feel blessed that we share the same vision. Let me just quickly congratulate AAB International for their latest signings; model Sheldry Amirez. She is an absolutely stunning model with a very bright future. Daisy Dares; you should already know.... oh and AAB are also handling Cheryl Coles branding. I'm with the big boys ;)

Got some great news! So I mentioned in my last post that I was reading scripts and will be auditioning for some films; well I went for my first acting audition and guess what..... ;) Yep, you got it. Well, I did really lol. It is only a small part but to be honest that is what I wanted. I am so excited to be on set of my first film and to kick start my acting career! Plus I have read the whole script and love it; it is a comedy and very funny. I feel very priviliged to be involved. Contract/form was emailed to me today so everything is set! I will be filming next month..... yaaaay :)

What else has been happening? Went to Roundhouse to watch Chipmunk perform as some of my managers clients were also performing; Daisy Dares and Esmee Denters. Unfortunately my late arse missed Daisy, but Chipmunk was great. I'm not a fan of concerts as I get bored quite easily; I need entertainment like dancing or a great performance. You can't just stand there and sing/rap. Come on, I might as well just sit at home and listen to your cd then whilst doing something else useful with my time. But Chippy has great energy; very enthusiastic and keeps the crowd excited. Wretch 32 also made a quick appearance. Esmee was amazing as always with her rich vocals and sweet humble self. Was good bumping into my boy Dready and Smokey (SBTV); both rising stars and hardworkers.

The crowd were LIVELY and it was packed! Thank goodness we were seated up here and not standing down there with the over excited fans!

We then arrived at the Hills finale party 4 hours late..... ahem. So yeah..... not much to report on that LOL.

I gave away a FREEBIE yesterday! A download of my August Calendar pic for your mobiles, pc's, lappys, iPads.... yeah you get the drift. The image is at the top of this post. I promised to feature some of my fans who sent in their pics with me as their backgrounds.... so here goes!

Shout out to @JUMPINSOUNDS for this one

And lots of love to @Welshboi2010 for this one!

Looks hot right?

I will try to feature more supporters in future posts as I appreciate them sooooo very much. Without sounding corny :)

On a corny note though; is this not cute? My boy came back from Nigeria and got me this.

He said because he is a Lion (Leo) and I am a Lioness. So now I am back in Lioness mode and feel like I can take on the world! Hehehehe. No but seriously, I love gifts that are meaningful and special :) And I love gifts from different countries. So many of my loved ones are travelling at the mo so I'm hoping to get many more pressies lol.

I traded in Sarah Hardings party tonight to write you a blog and then chill out with my latest read; Modern European Art. I've got really into it; tres interesting. I might tell you more in my next post.

New pics below.

Love you all very much

P aka Lioness ;) xx

2010-07-27T01:07:00.000-07:00

Well well well, what do we have here? A NEW post? From moi? Wooooow. I'm due a telling off right? Long time, no write, I know. I have been quiet on the internet but everything else has been crazy!

I will start with the best and most recent news; Portia Freno signs with AAB International management. I am now managed by Daren Dixon. Daren's clients include Kelly Rowland, Keri Hilson, Ali Bastien (Hollyoaks) Natalie Suliman (face of M&S) and a few selected more. Oh, and now me!

We were first formally introduced in New York at Talib Kweli's listening party by a great mutual friend.... and the rest is to be history. I can now officially say that I am AAB interntaional's latest signing. I am extremely happy and excited for the future.

So,what else has been going on in my world?

Before I continue, let me apologise for a lack of images as they are all on my iPhone and I left my iPhone in my interns car! Very irresponsible!

Esmee Denters release party:

Esmee Denters threw a party in M*vida and it was great! Nice crowd, familiar faces and a positive vibe. I am really proud of Esmee; she has been putting the work in and really deserves all the success she is due to get. Her voice is rich and unique, her talent forever improving and she is a very sweet humble person. It was fun catching up over a couple of drinks. Make sure you buy Esmee's latest single "Love Dealer", now available in the UK.

Knight and Day Film Premiere, Odeon, Leicester Square

I have been to premieres before, but this was my first red carpet at a premiere. I must say, it was surreal. I just want to shout out all my fans that showed me love and shouted out my name. It was quite unexpected but a great experience. To think that I was sharing a carpet with the beautiful Cameron Diaz and Tom Cruise, and you still spotted me and showed your support. Kisses to you!

Knight and Day is the latest film from US director James Mangold. A combination of action and humour, it was expected to be an enjoyable and exciting film. Unfortunately it got very poor reviews in America, and I was unable to watch more than the first ten minutes as I was pulled out for a meeting, but be sure to check it out and see for yourself. I will post up some images of myself once I receive them.

London Motor Museum launch party with celebrity chef Aldo Zilli

So the first ever pop up London Motor Museum had a small and intimate launch party in Piccadilly. Their car collection boasts a value of over £250,000,000 and they drove some down for the event. I was getting so excited by all the hot cars! The best part was meeting Aldo Zilli; you must have heard of his restaurants. His food is amazing and he catered for the event. I also got to meet Dynamo magician who completely freaked me out. These are not tricks but MAGIC. After witnessing and being a part of some of his madness, I decided I didn't want him anywhere near me lol. Check him out!

My girl Terri Walker performs

So you read my last post and know all about Terri's latest endeavours right? Well she invited me down to watch her rock the stage in Shoreditch House. She was amazing! It's one thing having a good voice, but it is sooo important to have great stage presence and performing ability. This woman has so much energy and it was a pleasure to catch her in action. Make sure you keep up to date with Terri Walker.

The London Clothes Show Live

I headed down to The Clothes Show as I was working with Pantene. I had to continuously wave my hair around and suffered from a stiff neck after lol. And I brought lots of dresses :) Shows were great; overall it was a success.

Auditions/Script reading

I have been script reading and auditioning recently; watch this space :)

Girls Night Out

My girl Toya Berry invited me to let my hair down and I thought, why not? I hadn't partied in London once that year, so felt like I deserved it. We went to Movida and stayed at the Carlton Tower hotel. Can you believe that it wasn't until the morning when we were lazing around eating that we discovered a door that led to the rest of the suite! Another 5 rooms lol. And all that time we were cooped up together, hahaha. We had champagne lunch and lots of food; it was nice to just chill out for once and be spoiled rotten. Thanks Toya xx

New photos below; I have some amazing new images that I am dying to share with you but I am not allowed to until they are published. But a few I shot for a boutique are below. They are untouched/unedited.

Have a productive week

Portia x

Congratulations is in order!

2010-06-10T11:26:00.000-07:00

Well well well! My first blog since back in sunny London ay! Yes I have been a lazy biiaaatttcch since arriving back in "the grey zone" as my friend calls it, but so what? Being away for 6/7 weeks made me realise just how much I love my fam and friends and that I cannot be away from them for too long!

Since arriving back I have spent everyday with those I love! I feel blessed to have so many around me who I love and trust with my life; it's a blessing.

New York was AMAZING and as you know I started a new project out there. My return to the States is already booked so my time here in London is temporary..... I have been refraining from writing about New York because I want to inform you of most things via video blog..... so hold tight.

I titled this post "Congratulations in order" because so many good things have happened since I came back and a few people deserve a pat on the back.

Firstly, my best friend finished her last exam. She has been working so hard on her psychology degree and finally the stress is over! I am so so SO proud of her! Next, she is off to the Caymen Islands for an internship before joining me in NYC! Aww God is good! We had a bbq and little party to celebrate as we had such a hot lovely day last week. We were there from midday till midnight eating, drinking and catching up with friends. Was a great day! Well done Laurs, love ya xx

Another HUGE congratulations goes to my sweethearts sister, who had a gorgeous baby boy last week! So last week we went down to the hospital to see the bundle of joy and I must admit tears came to my eyes lol. He is perfect. So much hair already and gorgeous eyes. His features are already so defined. He is adorable. His mother is glowing and doing well. God is good ;)

The last congrats goes to Terri Walker. Met up with her out in New York and was very happy to hear that she's working with Rocafella and is in the studio with big boy producer Ski beatz; working in the Dash Gallery studios (Damon Dash's studio) She seemed soooo happy; she was glowing! Her voice is amazing, she's got personality and drive and has been given the freedom to work on material she is passionate about, as opposed to being a puppet to the commercial market. She'll be back in London very soon gigging so follow her on twitter @therealmzwalker and keep updated. Well done girly! Mwaaah

Ooooh let me congratulate myself actually! I am currently fasting and I'm telling you it is HARD! Any of you who follow me know how I love my food; so much so I get called Food Queen and regularly asked for food spots, dinner ideas etc LOL. I had just returned to London and was stuffing my face with my guy when he decided to tell me that tomorrow he was starting his fast! Me being me (speaking before I think) I agreed to fast with him. Why oh why. No I'm kidding; I am happy to be fasting. Makes you appreciate how lucky we are and reminds you how greedy we all are too! But boy oh boy you should see us when 6pm comes....damn! Like scavengers over the pot of food lol.I even resigned to eating KFC the other day as we were on the road when 6pm came along, and who's waiting to get all the way home? Yeah.... so anyway, that is why I deserve a congratulations! One and a half weeks to go...... wish me luck!

It seems a long time ago that I was eating ish like this for brekkie....

I am looking for interns for Snobbish TV. If you are interested in fashion, music, film/theatre, food/wining and dining, PA work, PR, events and/or fitness and would like to join the team please email snobbishtv@googlemail.com with a cv, pic and short bio on yourself, covering your interests and hobbies.

I miss some of my New York peeps.... :(

Michelle aka M dot aka M Dizzle

Harry aka Hari Hokis Pokis Bozadgerater Krishna

JJ aka Gadget aka My Homegurl!!

Crystal!!!! I just call her Crystal lol. She's actually from London and moved to NYC a few years ago. We had a blast in NYC. Luv ya girl x

There are many others I miss but I don't have pics so can't be bothered to mention them. You know who you are. See you soon x

Was also good linking up with Snips, Daren Dixon, Chris Stylez, Dready and Terri Walker out there. I got a Snobbish 16 out of Dready, Terri and Snips as well! You won't know what a Snobbish 16 is yet but you will soon! It's already evolved into the Snobbish 69, so the others got let off lightly!

You will know more soon........

Remember peeps; congratulate and applaud those when necessary; show people when you are proud of them, whether it for something big or small. Spread love! Encourage positivity and blessings.

A candle doesn't lose it's light by lighting another candle....

Portia xx

2010-05-13T07:03:00.001-07:00

I am writing this post from Manhattan in New York, (very SATC)to proudly announce TWO things;

I have had to extend my stay in New York for the SECOND time, due to work, bookings and so many more opportunities

The BIRTH of SNOBBISH!!!! Snobbish is my new venture and a project I am extremely excited about. Snobbish is a brand, and i have just launched it's lifestyle channel on youtube http://youtube.com/SnobbishTV with it's website to come soon. The channel covers everything lifestyle; from food and drink and events, to fashion, book reviews and even my own video diary following me behind the scenes; at shoots, just being silly and snobbish etc.

Snobbish is a state of mind; an attitude. It's wanting to always improve yourself; to educate yourself so you can always know better. Snobbish is living life, being well travelled. It's experiences; a journey from your current self to your better self. Most importantly; Snobbish is fun, sexy and classy. It's being high maintenance; not because you are difficult, but because you know your worth, so why would you settle for any less? And what's the problem with having high standards when you are the one who can provide for yourself?

The Snob Commandments will soon be on their way!

The channel is new but I aim to upload new vids regularly; I am even learning how to use Final Cut Pro so that I can edit all my own personal videos.

I will also be flying back to London at some point to cast for new Snobs for team Snobbish as there will be a lot of new features being added to the site as the brand grows.

I am so excited!

So NYC saw the birth of Snobbish...... it was a blessing coming here. So much has happened already. I'm going to post a video diary telling you about it.

Does the birth of Snobbish mean the death of PortiaFreno.blogspot.com? I am not sure. Although reading will always be my preferred method, times are changing. Blogs are dying and everyone wants the video version. People want to see visuals. We will see. If anything I will use this blog to write about topics; maybe something related to Snobbish or off the back of one of the current features.

I do miss London; family and friends.... in fact I pine for certain people sometimes. And I long to hug my mum and my little sisters; kick it with some of my closest friends... but everyone here is so friendly, and luckily I have a few London peeps here so it's ok. New York has been good to me so I can't complain; I've received a lot of love.....

So! Raise your glasses, or anything that happens to be nearby you as you sit and read this, to SNOBBISH and SnobbishTV, and follow me on the exciting journey of it's growth and development. If you would like more information on it hit me up on SnobbishTV@gmail.com

It has a twitter page. Yep, you guessed it http://twitter.com/SnobbishTV And make sure you subscribe to the youtube channel http://youtube.com/SnobbishTV

Thank you daaaahhlings!!

Portia Freno xx

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2010-04-19T09:02:00.000-07:00

So I think it's time I updated you guys! I am currently in London, UK; I should have been in New York in a few hours! I am sure you are aware of the volcano that took place in iceland (if you're not you need to get it together and start knowing what's happening around you lol) and the fact that the ash cloud has affected thousands and thousands of flights. So unfortunately for my US followers I didnt make it today; but my flight has been booked for this coming Saturday.

I was looking forward to appearing on the Angela Yee Morning After show this week and apologies to those who were looking forward to hearing me on there! My team are working on getting things rescheduled so hold tight..... and I will keep you posted.
I've also missed out on a photo shoot but hopefully not much else will be affected...

I was actually quite ill recently; had to go hospital and all sorts! But God is good and I'm making a speedy recovery... almost 100%! It slowed down a few things for me but I'm back with a vengeance... ;)

My memory is awful..... ok so since my last blog basically I've been up to the usual; filming, shoots, studio, events etc. Went to Tinie Tempah release party, Shank screening, film premiere for The blind side... The Blind Side is a great film! If you haven't seen it yet make sure you do; I cried!! Talking about crying though; I cried during a play that I went to watch that my girl took part in. It was called "Agape" meaning "unconditional love". The message was so beautiful and I really could relate. I was proud of my girl Desiri, a friend from church. The play was supposed to be performed in Atlanta as we speak but unfortunately due to the flight disruptions they haven't made it yet. God will make sure they go though!

I hate when I leave it so long to blog as it means that I don't update you with everything and leave lots out. That is why it makes sense to blog day by day. When I return from the States (if I return ;)...) I will be working on my new website and my blog will be incorporated with my other site features; so expect a much better site and blog in the near future....

Oh! I deleted my facebooks! Hahahaha and it feels great. I had 17,000 messages and 6,000 friend requests on one account, and about 1,000 requests on the other; it just became too congested! I know some peeps have been able to get all their friends automatically transfered onto their fan page, which is a good look and makes life a lot easier. I might think about getting that done as I may still have some fan pages up, I'm not sure as I haven't even checked yet... but to all 13,000 of you that got deleted from my 2 accounts, apologies and follow me on twitter! I think it's more practical anyway..... I'm not a fan of social networks in general to be honest; they can be very useful I know but I don't have the time or the patience to be updating all the time, uploading videos, pics and reading messages. Long. Plus don't we deserve some privacy peeps? Some of us wanna tweet about real personal stuff.... hmmm... I dunno. As I'm sure I've said in a previous post it's a love/hate relationship for me and twitter.

My boy Hari (@thesheriff) flew down from the States recently; the last time he flew down I was literally too busy to catch up with him, but the other day I went to The Trafalgar for drinks with him, Ara and a few others. It was an intimate affair and a nice chillout for me. Hari is making major moves in the US since moving there; I love being around cool hardworking people.

At an Adidas event with @arathecoach

I have to go because I am craving the cheesecake that's in the kitchen;is that bad? I might blog again tonight. Below, in the next two posts you can view videos of me interviewing Logan Sama and Mr Midas. Make sure you check them out.

Talent is God-given; be humble
Fame is man-given; be grateful
Conceit is self-given; be careful

God bless

Portia xx

Portia Freno and Mr Midas

2010-04-19T08:47:00.000-07:00

Award winning artist Mr Midas sat down with Inbox magazine and myself; this video has been cut down so I will try to get the full version for you guys at some point. Midas is a cutie. I love his confidence and his drive.

Portia speaks with DJ Logan Sama

2010-04-19T08:08:00.000-07:00

Here you can catch me speaking with DJ Logan Sama for Inbox magazine; considered a God to the grime industry! Logan has a show on Kiss and has done so much for grime artists; offering grime a platform to progress and be heard.

LOOK OUT FOR ME!!! ;)

2010-03-14T12:21:00.000-07:00

I made Flavour Magazines 2010 Hotlist! Alongside talent such as Ikes, Jessica Cornish, Jewel clothing, Devlin and Charlie Sloth: I was labelled a superstar of the future and one to watch out for. I told ya :) Shout out to Flavour magazine, Ammika and Toya Berry. Click on the title above ("Look out for me!!") or go to flavourmag.co.uk page 36 to check me out and to see who else made the 2010 hotlist.

I keep neglecting you and I am aware; all I can do is thank you for still sticking around despite my absences! I think Twitter is partly to thank; though I barely tweet work stuff or everything I'm doing, I believe its a great way for you to be involved without having to wait on the blog. I'm not going to bother saying AGAIN that I will start blogging more regularly; it is what it is and I am blogging now as I literally have a minute to. I do often think of stories and experiences that I would like to share with you all though, including inspiring and uplifting words and I hope to one day have a full day to get some proper writing done.

I'm off to New York next month so things are a little hectic; deadlines are a bitch. I've got a lot of planning and decision making to do...... I've realised that we are all so spoiled for choice; there are so many things that many of us are capable of doing and as a result that can lead to confusion; we can find ourselves struggling to decide what path we wanna take. If only we were given no choice; life would be so much simpler! I'm not complaining though; I've the ability to do so many things for a reason and I just need to find a way to exhaust all of my passions/talents simultaneously or know what should be made priority etc. All that matters is right now I'm extremely busy and extremely happy...... ;)

I chopped off my hair! It's now just passed my shoulders. It was a scary move and I immediately cried but now I am happy; everyone says I look more mature and guess what? My hair will grow.

I will try to get some footage uploaded; got some of Eddie Kadi on a photo shoot after I interviewed him which is kinda funny; Eddie is hilarious. It was really nice interviewing him as he seems a genuinely sweet, good guy and he is JOKES!

I interviewed a few potential PA/PR interns this week and will interview a few more next week; then I am hoping to come to a decision; I want my new interns before flying to New York as tooooo much needs to be done. If you are interested then send your CV to jacquelynejoyah@portiafreno.com. Must be enthusiastic, hardworking, reliable,flexible,creative,organised and have the ability to use own initiative etc. Experience is a huge bonus but most certainly not compulsory. I look forward to hearing from some of you x

I have to go peeps! I'll update you again soon.

Lots of love,

ya girl Porsh xx

♥ Lots to tell! ♥

2010-01-22T11:44:00.000-08:00

Hellooooooo my darlings!

Long time no speak! Well kinda; I've definitely left it longer before!

Before I continue my post, I'd just like to give my condolences and prayers to the victims of Haiti. Damn; that shit really makes you realise how frikkin lucky you/we all are, doesn't it? Just when you're complaining about something trivial, you think about the devastating state of Haiti and kinda feel like a selfish ungrateful person for even moaning. I mean, we can only imagine what they are going through. We take taking things for granted to a whole next level; how often do you wake up joyous and grateful for a new day;for a roof over your head, clean water and clothes? How often do you go to bed at night and thank the Lord for even making it through another day without disaster or tragedy? We should never become complacent; tomorrow is not promised to anyone.......

Anyway, we can all help in some way, whatever our situation. Please try to peeps

My calendar is now available for download and all the proceeds will go to Haiti. I have sent clothes but still have another suitcase to send. You can purchase my calendar here http://portiafrenomerchandise.bigcartel.com Obviously a big incentive to buy is that the proceeds go to Haiti, but also you get 12 hot, unreleased images of moi so it's a win win!

Anyhoo.... moving on!

I have had a fantastic past few weeks; even the bad days have been great cos I always bounce back 10x stronger! The last few days have been particularly good, as I just moved to Angel! Oh my goodness I ♥ it. The buzz, the vibe, the energy and best of all....... the shops. I discovered some hidden little vintage boutiques last night; plus they have great stores like Joy and All Saints, wicked restaurants and bars; I am in heaven. What's even better is I'm tucked away on a quiter road; so not smack bang in the madness, but only a short walk away. Perfect ☺ It only got better when I was unpacking; I discovered two pairs of Vivienne Westwood shoes that I hadn't even worn yet and had forgotten about! It was my birthday all over again! lol. I did I have a slight panic attack when I couldn't find my diamonds; they are very special to me as they are from someone very special; but I still have lots of stuff down the road in Finchley so I'm hoping and praying to God every night that I find them there. Please pray for me peeps!!

Well it looks like I'm a North London girl now! As reluctant as I am; despite always reppin for West London, the truth is I've been living in North for roughly 3 and a half years now (besides a month or so when I was back right next to Westfields- disaster I tell ya!) So can I really call myself a West London woman? Lol I guess it's where your heart is. But it is fair to say an Angel is stealing my heart..... already ♥

So, as you probably already know, I am now presenting for the new mens publication INBOX magazine. I'm really excited about this mag; everyone behind it is dedicated and entrepreneurial and already I am really impressed with the first pilot issue. You can see it here It has a vast range of topics, all dedicated to men. I love the way it really focuses on entrepreneurial skills and interviews some real UK talent that can be under rated. For example, G Fresh; I've always rated him; his lyrics are sharp; his flow is deep and I've been following him for a while. Then there's SAS; who are more appreciated in the States. They are reppin Uk hard. I admire their grind and work ethic; I can relate ;) In addition to the website, you can check out Inbox magazine's YouTube channel, where you will find a video of me interviewing SAS. There are a lot more video interviews to come, including Mr Midas, DJ Logan Sama and Benjart dreams. Make sure you check it out!

Looks like everyone wants a piece of Portia the Presenter at the moment!

Today I got a phone call and was informed that The Sunday Show has been asked by channel AKA to be aired every week! That's great news for The Sunday Show team; they put the work in I'm telling ya! They more than deserve this. So I was more than happy when I was asked to jump on board as a presenter; I'll be conducting backstage interviews with the artists/acts and also interacting with the crowd; you know; spicing things up a bit ;) So now you will be able to see me on your tv screens every week! Woop woop! lol. Our only concern was my schedule; but hopefully I can fit it in and find a way for everything to work. I think I'm straight to filming this Sunday! Thats how this industry works. I will let you know how it all goes.

I have been speaking with a couple connects in the States who are telling me I need to be in New York like yesterday, lol. I would have just gone, but wanted to have my full lingerie collection before heading out there, plus I had other commitments etc and was in two minds. So I decided to go in May/June to give myself some time; I thought it best that way as then my American booker and stylist can have more time to work on my schedule. It wasnt only my collection, modelling/presenting, music etc that I wanted to do when out there, despite that being the obvious. I am in talks abiut getting involved in some marketing campaigns out there; I wont elaborate, but I have a strong interest. Anyway I have been doing a course on marketing and sales; I am going to be a pro! lol. I think it is very important to be multi-talented and to get involved behind the camera; not just in front. BUT; I spoke to one of my friends out in New York and he is telling me that May/June will just not do lol. Apparently it's too far away! So I have a meeting tomorrow and hopefully I will know more about when I will be leaving for NYC. I will be there for quite some time so it wasn't something I wanted to rush, especially now just moving house, but hey, that's the life of a working model!! I will also be working on a swimwear collection once in New York.

Lets talk working out.....quickly, lol. Had a very promising start last week; trained twice in one week! lol. It was with a personal trainer though so I was literally forced to do stuff; He kept shouting stuff at me like, "Get up get up!" and, "Go go go! Don't stop moving COME OOOOOON!!".
Very very mean man, I must say. Today, after being too afraid to see the trainer again for a few days, I worked out ALONE and I have to admit, I did well. It's not so bad after all lol. Despite never working out my body is in shape; but I know when you start thinking like that that's when things start going all pear shaped haha. So I am back at the gym and hopefully I will stick at it....... watch this space.

Anyway, I know it's Friday night, but the weekend doesn't mean parties for me. I have an early start tomorrow; meetings, seeing my friends daughter, meeting my girl, getting my nails and eyebrows done; etc etc. Soooooooooo

Ciao

Lioness

Sites to check out:

Me shooting for SHOW magazine; this video hit crazy views on ragggs.com; coming 2nd to Westwood with the most views! Anyone know why? lol http://www.ragggs.com/2009/12/24/portiafreno-photoshoot-with-show-mag-in-us/

portiafreno.com - Site soon to be spiced up; look out for that

Shout outs; toyaberry.blogspot.com because I am loving her new blog.

twitter.com/jacquelynejoyah Because she is not only my business partner and American booker, but also because she is a hot hot stylist, recently featured in Essence magazine

wordonroad.com Because they did the graphics for my calendar and are 24,7 working

twitter.com/jaystewartphoto Because he is my little gem photographer, shot most of my 2010 calendar and is mad talented. To book Jay for a hot price get at me

xx ♥♥ xx

♥ PORTIA FRENO 2010 CALENDAR ♥

2009-12-30T08:38:00.000-08:00

There were a few discrepancies regarding my calendar, and I am so very thankful your patience. But believe me; it was well worth the wait ;) It can be downloaded here for your pc's, lappys and mobiles http://portiafrenomerchandise.bigcartel.com I will be printing a limited amount and doing a signing party soon. Look out for details on that as it will be a private and intimate party.

I have uploaded my 2nd favourite month above; didn't want to reveal my very favourite and spoil it for you all lol.

Let me know once you've downloaded the calendar whether it be via twitter, facebook or my email, so that I can give you a personal THANK YOU.

You're gonna love it ;)

♥ Portia Freno

Merry Merry Christmas! ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

2009-12-25T08:54:00.000-08:00

Just a quick one to wish you a very Happy Christmas!!

Please try to remember what Christmas is all about. Many of us are with our loved ones and families, eating lots of food, giving and receiving gifts. It is good to take the time out to think of those who are less fortunate and who may not have the privilege of moments like these. Remember the best gift you can give and receive is love. I pray most nights, but I can admit sometimes I take things for granted. Christmas has the highest suicide rate; there is too much pressure on the wrong things; money, presents, elaborate gestures, having to have a huge family. Family is who you love, and even if that is only one person it should be seen as a blessing. Some people do not even have that; some people will be sleeping on the streets this Christmas, some may be ill or in hospital; others in poverty. It is these times that it really dawns on me just how lucky a lot of us really are. So make the most of it and be grateful; however you may be celebrating.

Enjoy my darlings

♥ ♥ Lots of love ♥ ♥

Portia

xxxx

Portia, SAS, and INBOX magazine

2009-12-24T03:18:00.000-08:00

I caught up with SAS the other day in an interview for Inbox magazine. The full written interview can be found in the published publication early next year. But for now, check the vid out. I get SAS talking about whos hot, UK and US hip hop, their former beef with Juelz Santana, and the inevitable groupies. Enjoy xx

Shout out to Ragggs.com for also posting this video up http://www.ragggs.com/2009/12/24/mayhemsas-megasas-talk-hip-hop-with-portiafreno/

Stay beautiful this winter.....

2009-12-23T13:15:00.000-08:00

I was very flattered when The Trusted Beauty Guide contacted me to do an interview for their Celebrity Special section of their website. It was a great opportunity to share some very useful health and beauty tips with their readers and also my fans. With the winter winds nipping at our skin and damaging our hair, it is very important to keep hydrated and to make sure we are eating the right foods to keep us looking gorge. I also let you in on some make up must haves, and the spas and salons you need to be visiting.

So, I thought I'd leave the interview below for you to read. Don't let the winter weather get the best of you! Enjoy xx

How do you manage to have such beautiful skin and look so fresh? What are your beauty secrets?

There are so many yet they are all so simple; get a skin analysis. Know your skin type to ensure you buy the right products. And you are what you eat; I eat a lot of organic superfoods that are rich with antioxidants and omegas. I would also always advise plenty of sleep; though I am guilty of not doing that myself! I swear by Kiehls products; their exfoliators and rare oatmeal face washes do wonders for my skin

Do you have anything you must do beauty wise before leaving the house?

I tend to stay away from make up the majority of the time if I'm not shooting. But my eyebrows must be perfectly threaded and my lips glossed up!

Trapped on a desert island; what 3 beauty products would you really miss?

Kiehls lip balm, my bronzer and my favourite coco bean body bar from Lush

What beauty or Spa treatment can you not you live without?

I could not live without being able to visit my hair sponsors Adee Phelan. They give my hair the most luxurious treatment using only the finest treatments. They treat and style many celebs. I aways leave the salon with a luscious silky mane; suiting my name "Lioness"!! Check them out http://www.adeephelan.co.uk/

What is your favourite Spa/salon?

My Favourite Hair Salon is Adee Phelan. As for Spas, I like the Sanctury as it is extremely tranquil, they do fantastic treatments and they are for women only

How do you prefer to relax?

Playing some soulful music, running a bath with all of my favourite products, candles, oils, a good book. Writing music, Using an amazing scrub on my skin and then finishing off with the silkiest softest moisturiser

What do you do to stay in shape?

I work out when I can, often with a personal trainer. I never diet and I eat what I like when I like. My diet is varied and balanced though; I eat a lot of good food and yes sometimes I eat bad food. But I walk a lot and I'm always on the go. I'm a fan of belly dancing and I squat everytime I brush my teeth ;)

What are your favourite exercises?

Squats, belly dancing and I love to use the power plate....doing squats! I also really enjoy boxing; it's a good way to release angry energy!

Do you have any special diets?

No, I really don't diet. But I would advise people to find out if they have any intolerances; many of us are lactose intolerant or allergic to wheat, yet are still eating it on a daily basis. This can cause bloating, bad skin or discomfort.

Do you have any health tips for our readers?

I drink lots of water. It's great for so many things; your skin, your hair, your energy and hydration. 9 times out of 10 I guarantee if you have a headache it's due to dehydration and a bottle of water will cure it. If you eat fruit try not to eat anything else with it at least half an hour before and after. This way your body digests most of the goodness from the fruit. Some people try to lose weight by reducing what and how often they eat, but that is a bad idea! This will slow your metabolism down and cause your body to put on weight, as it will begin to store any fat that passes through your body. Eat little and often, and eat within the first hour of waking up, to kick start your metabolism and help you to continuosly burn off fat.

What is your favourite healthy food(s)?

I could never ever possibly choose one! This is the hardest question I've been asked in an interview! I love most fruit and veg, especially avocado, mango, spinach, goji berries, blueberries, beetroot, strawberries... the list is endless. Fish is also so good for you and one of my favourite dishes

Some of my modeling workshop classes offer nutrition and diet advice for models. If you are based in the UK you can get more info on The Workshop by emailing bookingenquiries@PortiaFreno.com and putting "The Workshop" in the subject heading.

To read the inteview on The Trusted Beauty Guide's site, and to get more essential info, click here: http://www.thetrustedbeautyguide.co.uk/#/portia-freno/4534571677

Approaching the end of the year!!!!

2009-12-22T15:55:00.000-08:00

Well well well.... what can I say??!! Another year almost gone by...Again.......DAMN!! Is it just me or did this year not go really really quickly? Seriously I can remember last year like it was last week! What a mad blur... I'm so awful with dates anyway; I wanted to go through my year with you, highlights and lowlights but I would just be calling people up like "What date did we do this?" and "when was that shoot?" Lol. Wouldn't make sense.

The year has been crazy; I know that much. And I've probably learned more about myself than I have in a long time. Not everything I've learned about myself I've liked, if i'm honest. But im happy I can say that; because I've made/am making the changes. Some people don't like to better themselves. Those who are wise know they are in fact not so wise. There is always much to learn; keep an open mind. There is always room for improvement.

One thing I have learned more than anything this year, is that nothing is possible without FAITH. That might sound obvious to you, but not really. Just wanting something or thinking you deserve something isn't enough. You have to truly truly believe in it and have faith. And patience. And without God I truly believe you cannot have that real, honest and strong faith. Never. I'm not going to start preaching people lol. But please have faith. So much has happened to me in the last couple of years that without faith in myself and others I don't know how I would have coped!

I mentioned a few posts ago that I was dropping projects and trying to find MY main focus; not wanting to be pushed in a direction others wanted for me anymore. I dropped my management a long while ago now and have been happy with the progress I have made alone. It's been hard, I wont lie. But what was harder was the fact that I didnt know exactly what I wanted to do! I was so torn between modeling, presenting, acting, writing, singing, music, media, designing, settling down or continuing alone on my journey and adventures... Aww it was mad. The truth is I was capable and great at all those things but it's not good being a jack of all trades; what did I want to master in?

I was also scared to up and leave for the States like I was supposed to; my heart took over.....

But you know what they say.. you gotta fly and if its meant to be..... but I stayed lol.

At one point I was done with the industry; oh how fake, shallow, bitchy, nasty and pointless it can be! I was feeling ready to just have cute gorgeous little babies and play house wife! lol. Oooh that was close; I don't think you are tired of me yet? Don't worry I'm not shacking up for now. I decided what I'm focusing on and you guys will definitely know more come 2010......

There is one special man in my life who for the last 3 and a half years has touched my life, always been there for me no matter what, always had my back and has become my closest friend before anything else. We've had our ups and downs but I've realised that a real friend tells you about yourself when you need telling! When I look back at the good and bad times of the past year, he is at the forefront; either happy for me or catching me when I fall.

So I think peeps, when you reflect on your past year, rather than only look at your success, also look at those who truly have touched your life. Think of those who you love and make sure you appreciate them because you never know when God has sent you an angel. Real love is when you make it through the storm smiling. Value your friendships. Don't ever think you can do it all alone. Yes there are a lot of fake people, I'm not saying you need to have dozens of friends. I can count my real and closest ones on one hand. Even if it's just that one person, appreciate them. Call them now, go on! Actually wait! Read the rest of this first, lol. But don't forget....

First I want you to read below and then let me know how YOU would answer xx

I AM PROUD THAT..... I broke through the height barrier and have been booking a lot of high fashion shoots alongside top agency models.

I AM LOOKING FORWARD TO..... My lingerie line. Doing more work and presenting for new mens publication Inbox magazine

I AM ASHAMED THAT I........ EVER entertained the silly little bitches that are clearly very jealous of me and tried to get up in my business

I PLAN TO CHANGE...... the fact that I am quite impatient. The best things come to those who wait......

THIS YEAR I COULDNT HAVE LIVED WITHOUT..... God, my mother, my homie-lover-friend, my girls Lisa, Laura and Kisha

NEXT YEAR I PROMISE TO....... Give more to charity, deepen my convictions and my faith in Him, see my family more often. Hold more regular workshops for aspiring models

How would you answer?

This is just a quick one and I will be posting again before the end of the year. Just wanted to share and swap some thoughts....

"Love is food to the soul....."

Lioness xx

A few features;

Celebrity feature for The Trusted Beauty Guide

http://www.thetrustedbeautyguide.co.uk/#/portia-freno/4534571677

UrbanWorld feature

http://www.urbanworld.co.uk/fashion/1905/Model-Focus:-Portia-Freno.html

Kanye West personal blog

http://www.kanyeuniversecity.com/blog/?em3164=0_-1__-1_~0_-1_12_2009_0_15&em3106=206256_-1__0_~0_-1_5_2008_0_0&em3161=&em3281=&em3298=&em3282=&em3257=

Daily Sport Feature

http://sarahjaneadams.blogspot.com/2009/05/sarah-janes-daily-sport-stunners-portia.html

Wanna watch TV

http://209.85.229.132/search?q=cache:DVKZ5Zo4zFMJ:www.wannawatch.tv/wannaseebg/portia-freno.html+portia+freno&cd=33&hl=en&ct=clnk&gl=uk

Get rich or die trying; trespass mag

http://www.trespassmag.com/?p=1562

Awesome bods

http://www.awesomebods.com/update_archive_2008_12.htm

Setting The Record STRAIGHT

2009-11-16T06:53:00.000-08:00

So,the story goes like this:

I've always had haters, I'm sure most of you reading this have. No matter what line of work you are in, you will have haters.

Definition of a hater:Someone who is jealous and envious and spends all
their time trying to make you look small so they can look tall. (Thanks to Maya Angelou)

Before I elaborate, let me raise a few very valid points about haters.

Haters can’t stand to see you happy,
Haters will never want to see you succeed,
Haters never want you to get the victory,
But most importantly......Most of our haters are people who are supposed to be on our side.

How do you handle your undercover haters?

You can handle these haters by:

1. Knowing who you are & who your true friends are *(VERY IMPORTANT!!)

2. Having a purpose to your life. Purpose does not mean having a job;You can have a job and still be unfulfilled. A purpose is having a clear sense of what God has called you to be. Your purpose is not defined by what others think about you.

3. By remembering what you have is by divine prerogative and not human manipulation

Fulfill your dreams!

You only have one life to live…...when it’s your time to leave this earth,
you want to be able to say, ‘I’ve lived MY life and fulfilled MY dreams… Now I’m ready to go HOME!'
When God gives you favor, you can tell your haters, 'Don’t look at me…Look at Who is in charge of me…’

Haters are very negative people to say the least. Nothing is ever good enough! When you make your mark, you will always attract some haters…That’s why you have to be careful with whom you share your blessings and your dreams, because some folk can’t handle seeing you blessed.

So..... I hope now that some of you are more clued up about haters and how to deal with them? And for those who are my haters and reading this blog, as you do avidly, realise that you are your own biggest hater! That's not good!

Ok, so a hater has been broken down... let me continue with my short story.

So, for over a year now I think, personal pictures of me, pictures which I have never published or taken for any commercial or entertainment purpose, pictures which are strictly for myself and of course my lucky man, have been posted up all over the internet including my fan pages and social network sites. Someone even went as far as to open new accounts in my name, email addresses, social sites and post up all these pictures.

Now these pics are not images that I would want anyone but myself or my man to see.

How did such personal pics get out you ask?

I was booked to appear at a club in Kensington one evening. I went with my girl, but stupidly not with my PA at the time. In fact the first thing the manager said to me when I got there was "Where's Rebecca". I had told her not to worry coming, that I was going to behave and she wouldn't be needed.

The reality is the club got me extremely drunk. Ok, I got myself drunk. But Belvedere Vodka mixed with endless champagne is a guaranteed formula for a drunken state right?

Anyway the whole night was a blur, my personal belongings were left on my table. Usually Rebecca would have been there and she would stay sober, my things would be safe etc etc. But being the silly cow I was, I left them on the table and danced the night away. I remember at one point even leaving the VIP and hitting the main dance floor, so yes, my bag was just...there.

Anyhoo, woke up the next morning on Lisas sofa. Now most of the time my phone is with me and literally the second I woke up (dry mouthed and hungover) I had that horrible sinking feeling you know you get when you know you've lost something? I just knew instantly I had lost my phone, oh that feeling in my stomach, it was horrible! I rang it immediately and it actually rang. No answer.... then about 20 minutes later, mobile phone switched off.

I literally cried instantly cos what hurt me the most is I had such personal family stuff on there, like video footage of good memories,jus vids u crave to watch again, you know? Endless pics....

And of course, not before long, my personal pics started to get posted up.

They were naughtyISH pics, yes, but they were MY naughtyISH pics. (They werent actually that bad, coulda been a lot worse!) What I do for my man or in my spare time has nothing to do with anyone else. Yet I put myself in the public eye with my line of work so I guess I will have to explain things from time to time. I dont think I mentioned or wrote a blog when the images first started getting posted up; my PA literally saw to it that they were removed as quickly as they were put up, and after talking to a couple of big names in the industry, who reminded me of HATERS and how it is a reflection of MY success, I felt better. I knew there was literally nothing I could do about it anymore; they had my pics, the pics were out there.

"Sighs"

I stopped feeling sorry for myself and instantly felt sorry for the poor girl that was doing this

Girl; why did I make you so mad? I'm sorry xx

Anyway, that was aaaages ago and things went quiet for a while as far as the images went. And I continued to work, NEVER doing a topless shoot, not doing cheap shoots or anything distasteful, and apart from one or two "favours" YEARS ago never doing videos. Even the ones I did do were not degrading, I was fully clothed etc.

I have made my name by being choosy and respecting myself and not falling into the typical urban model category; tell me when you saw me at a typical UK model event? Don't for a second think I'm putting UK models down, cos that is far from what I'm doing, but anyone who is being honest knows the UK model industry is slipping. Besides, money talks, and it doesn't talk loud enough in most videos, features, underground gigs etc, as far as I'm concerned.

So recently after interviewing Tevin Campbell, I passed through a photo shoot that was taking place and was asked to do a quick interview for Nothing But Talent. I'll be the first to say it wasn't my best interview; I had the flu, had had little sleep as had found out about the Tevin interview literally the night before and had had to stay up researching. No excuses, but I'm my biggest critic and no it wasn't an award winning interview lol. I was ill, tired, but most importantly; IT WAS JUST A QUICK FRIENDLY CHAT.

I was waiting for the haters comments, but damn; at least some constructive criticism! The classic had to be the person who said excitable wasn't a word. Oh no, the classic had to be the one who after clearly sitting there watching me for 10 minutes, turned round and said "Wheres the lingerie then, shes making it up", after I had clearly said I'm hoping to launch it at the end of the year BUT I AM NOT RUSHING ANYTHING; I LIKE TO DO THINGS RIGHT. Who must I rush for, you? Nope, sorry, if I rush it's for myself..... and it's not gonna happen!

Wait for it though...... just when I thought that was hilarious, I get "She does do topless modelling, oh and Ive seen her tatto on her arse"

BITCH PLEASE; Show me these PUBLISHED, PRINTED and USED images that are topless. The images posted up were the same images from my phone, sent to my man, that were posted up after my club booking and phone loss. So obviously I assumed it was the same person. Which means.....

This bitch has had a vendetta against me for OVER A YEAR

WOW!!!!!!

It has to be someone close to me right? Someone who has had access to my lappy; someone maybe who even smiled and faked it out and danced the night away with me that night.

Aspiring high-achievers, hardworkers, successful peeps; BEWARE. People just wanna see you fall

Damn!! Life is crazy

Oh and something else to set straight;

I didnt say I had recorded with Leona Lewis, I said I had been in the studio and watched big artists and producers at work, meanwhile being inspired to write my own content. I was in Atlanta the same time as Leona. Not that big a deal.

I had had a real bad day and when I saw the images posted up again I will admit, as much as I hate to, that I felt quite upset. Hatred is EVIL. I might have been just a bit of a bully in school (hey it's be the bully or get bullied right?) but constant mean antics and spiteful behaviour, its just not necessary.

Corny moment time.....

SPREAD THE LOVE

Of course I was inundated with messages of support, and I was literally feeling better quite quickly; like my girl Xian said "Fuck A Bitch thats gotta hide behind a PC and cuss you" ;)

My man sat me down and I swear the way he reasons with me is something else. He's a blessing to me and if I'm being honest I'd be lost in many ways if I didn't have him to keep me sane! He reminded me what a greedy, competitive, envious and pathetic industry I am a part of; he said he's never understood why someone like me is even in it! But it's not all bad. Like my wise friend Toya said; you just have to find the meaning and purpose in everything you do. Just because the majority of those that surround us in this fake industy are exactly that, fake, doesn't mean I can't still shine and take whats good from it.

Obviously I've achieved more than the sad cow that's been plotting against me ever has or ever will.

So why was I affected yesterday?

Am I becoming too nice? Am I dropping my mask? Or am I starting to feel incomplete?

This experience has given me a new idea to add to my workshops though. Yes my modelling workshops. I'm not a bitch like many others; can you believe girls message me on facebook asking why I would want to teach other girls stuff that they could then use against me? Can you believe it? Do they not all realise that we can all shine? I can give you my tips, my advice, my help, equip you, start you off, etc, but then it is also up to that person to be wise enough to use my advice and make it their own. The way anyone else shnines will never be the same way I shine. We all glow differently, I guess. We all have something different to offer. Yes, we are all lightbulbs Portia.

Some people are clearly not switched on though; I know that much

So, lesson learned readers;

BE WORRIED WHEN YOU HAVE NO HATERS. Trust me. It's sad, but it's true. Only then be worried.

Keep your head down, remember YOUR purpose, do not allow yourself to be socially created, keep striving. Allow yourself off days, you are allowed to slip up, you are human. Just make sure you learn from the blip, change direction if necessary, but KEEP IT MOVING. Make every day a learning day.

Remember, every day is a good day, even the bad ones. Sometimes you NEED the worst shit to happen to you, and for your whole world to come crashin down, in order to rebuild and reach your full potential. Its a blessing xxxx

Portia xx

Oh, and you can watch the interview below, or check outhttp://nothingbuttalent.blogspot.com/2009/11/nbt-hook-up-with-portia-freno-for-chat.html to read comments from both supporters and haters. Haters, feel free to leave more comments, pictures etc, always welcome ;) I'm sure NBT would also like to thank you for the mad hits they've experienced since my interview; I'm good for business! Love ya all xxxx

Nothing But Talent

2009-11-13T07:10:00.000-08:00

Nothing but talent catches up with Portia Freno to catch up with her life, touching on her modelling, her lingerie line, her music, her playstation skills and her thoughts on the industry in general

Check out Nothing But Talent's site. They've got some great features and interesting posts.....Spread The Word! http://nothingbuttalent.blogspot.com/2009/11/nbt-hook-up-with-portia-freno-for-chat.html

I DID IT!!

2009-11-03T08:59:00.000-08:00

Hahahahahaha I stuffed my face the same as usual and still managed to lose weight and fit into all of the clothes! It's all in the mind I tell ya!

For those of you who need updating; I had a high fashion shoot but it clashed with my calendar shoots. Obviously I wanted to keep my curves for my calendar but when I got booked for such a great designer I knew I couldn't turn it down; the stylist was even flying down from the States! It was only two days before the shoot that I realised I wasn't quite SKINNY enough! I hadn't been shooting much besides the calendar, the rest of my time had been spent on my business ventures. And Im sure I mentioned my boyfriends comments on the fact that my bum was growing by the day (no complaints ladies, no complaints)

So the first evening I was soooooo good. Kinda.

Had fish and lots and lots of salad; spinach, rocket, avocado, tomato and a boiled egg.

Half an hour later I was STARVING. So I naughtily DEVOURED half of ONE of my birthday cakes. Yes, one. I had a few. Well not at this point actually; a couple had already been eaten.

Anyway I'm sure you know how the rest of the story goes; blah blah blah I continued to eat like there was no tomorrow; even managed one or two double cheeseburgers. I just dont know where it all goes, because come the day of the shoot and I had already lost weight (maybe it was the stress or worry??) Some of the pieces were even ever so slightly big for me.... not a good look.

But hey, gotta get paid right? And I felt really privileged to work with such talented people. I learned so much. The other model booked was a columbian model called Margerita; she was lovely. Such long limbs! I just had to put my A game on and prove that height IS NOT a factor.

In a next post I will introduce you to the creative team

So now I need to put weight on really quickly because I want ALL my curves back to finish my images for my 2010 calendar. It's a shame it had to go on hold but I didn't wanna shoot being skinny; not attractive as far as I am concerned!

Tell me; where do YOU prefer me?

Here...

and here...

Or.... here....

And here....

I know what I prefer! Let me know!

By the way, these images have not been edited or touched up at all; when I receive the touched up ones and the ones being used by the designer I will post them up for you

I am also very happy to announce that I have joined forces with Societe Noir; a big and expanding international lifestyle company. I am now an associate and I will be working on my workshops with them

I have had so many messages asking why I am not tweeting as much; besides the fact that I do not have ubertwitter on my BB right now, I have too much to do. There's more to life than twitter! lol. I'm serious! No honestly! Lol, I know you aren't all that bad, but not having ubertwitter is great right now. I didn't realise how much of your concentration it can use up; despite the fact that you can be working as you are tweeting.

So yes, I am alive but no, I'm not a twitterholic anymore. And I did it all without rehab :)

Lata potata

Keep striving high cos trust me; it's ALL worth it! Even the hard times are good times

Lioness xx

2009-10-28T09:36:00.000-07:00

Watup people?

So I've been booked for a big high fashion shoot! See! I told you height does not matter! You've followed me in my career and watched me do runway shows, high fashion shoots etc. But now you're about to witness some madness;

I've got a day and a half to go down a dress size

Hmmmmmm

As you know I've been really happy to have got my curves back; my man kept telling me my arse was getting bigger daily and of course I'd just smile and walk with an extra swing of the hip. Noooooow I NEED to be lickle bit so I can fit into this designers clothing! I've already lost a bit of weight over the last few days, not because I've been trying because I've been stuffing my face as always, but my weight has always been up and down anyway.

But I'm not quite an 8 yet, and I need to be a SMALL 8 by Friday.

The stylist has even flown in from America; I really want to deliver and give them the best shots. That will all go down hill if I don't even fit in the clothes! lol

I was really happy when I was contacted for the shoot. I was told the designer is in love with my portfolio and loves my look and has been considering me for her next shoot for a while. I was also told that the stylist from the States has been hoping to work with me and is flying over! Cool stuff. I will be shooting with one other model; 5 ft 10, skinny, stunning; you know the type. So I really have to have my A game on.

It was my bday the other day so I've been eating sooooo much cake and drinking a bit too much alcohol. So it's detox time I think.

Oooooh let me brief you on my bday. I only wanted a quiet one as it's only my 23rd and to be honest now wasnt the time for distractions what with so many deadlines.

I told my friends NO RAVING

I even told my man, who had booked dinner at Nobu and then a table at a club, "No thanks".

He misinterpreted this as me being an ungrateful bitch! But he spends so much flippin money on me all the time and he had spent so much on my present I didn't see the point in wasting another grand on alcohol and food.

What I did instead was so beautiful :)

I went to the screening for a friends new film at The Gate in Notting Hill; soooo my kinda thing, followed by some drinks on Portobello rd with friends and then danced the night away at The Arts Club. The truth is I wasnt even dressed up; polo neck and jeans! I had only planned to walk down to the screening, the rest wasnt planned but I had such a fantastic time. The music was great; no commercial ish. I got so drunk though; shame on me :0 I got recognised numerous times which was nice but also embarrassing cos I was so wasted and I'm not sure what I said to them. Looooool. Then my man and I had a quiet one in with a few bottles.....you know the rest ;) Well actually it started off as a party in my bedroom; I think I'm a DJ (which I'm learning to be) and was playing the soulful Funky, then switched it up and gave him some Hip Hop...good times.

BUT. The BEST part of my birthday? My Chloe bag ;) Oh I should have taken a picture. I will post one up for you. I can't believe my man spent £1250 on a bag. To be honest it's not the price that touched me as much as the fact that he picked it himself and went to great lengths to choose the perfect bag for me. Awww I love him.

So that is a brief on my birthday. Hahaha I've got some funny stories to tell you (oh the shame) but I will hit you up in a next post.

I feel a bit overwhelmed with my deadlines that sometimes I'm not sure where to start! I've been given 5 new tracks to write to for various artists including myself, I have another shoot to do for my calendar cos I changed my mind about 7 of the images! I've just teamed up with a big lifestyle company; my workshops are about to change and they are gonna be BIG. More info on that soon.

I am currently seeking PR interns, song writers, graphic designers and photographers, so spread the word

I should be at the 50 cent Premiere tomorrow; it all depends on whether my mum comes down to visit or not

Will tell ya the rest another time

Keep ya mind right and your body tight

Portia xx

Cake made by FreeLayLay. Look out for news on her soon to be published book!

My journey.....

2009-10-10T14:02:00.000-07:00

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy :)

Just updating you quickly...........................

My 2010 calendar will soon be available; going through some more images as I type this.

I'm working hard on the new lingerie collection; it's a lot right now. My in-house designer is a great inspiration and fantastic to work with

I just took on a new intern who is jumping on board with pr and marketing. Her CV was extremely impressive and I knew within 10 minutes of sitting down with her and giving her the Portia interrogation that she was going to be an asset to Portia Freno™

Things are moving along nicely. I'm taking my time; sometimes even stopping and changing direction. I feel like I'm on a mad journey right now. Ive been struggling a little; everyone around me thinking they know me and trying to push me in their direction, the vision they had for me. I found myself kinda nodding and agreeing; so many people on my side yet I felt so lonely.

So I kinda took time out. I don't even really mean time out of work, but time out in my mind. That's hard to explain and might sound crazy to you all right now, but I guess to put it simply I blanked out. Blanked out and thought about ME. Best choice I ever made. I got rid of the shit and the people just riding my dick, wanting to jump along for the ride. I got rid of the pressure that I had put on myself feeling like I had to please everyone. And I feel great! Dropped a few projects so I had more time to focus on the main and important ones and also more time to find myself and God.

I think it is easy to misintepret who you are; we sometimes base our judgement on what other people think. I think in this industry it is easy to be socially created but what is so important is that you find yourself. And in order to do that you have to appreciate that your life is a journey and you will discover and learn new things about yourself along the way. Some journeys are rocky, some are smooth; it can't always feel like the trip of a lifetime, but ultimately, believe me, it will be ;)

So, I am still on my journey and right now I'm enjoying it. I'm only half sure of where I'm going, but I guess that's part of the fun. At least I certainly know where I am not going!

I've been spending a bit of time in the studio, writing songs and also tryna build up my confidence when it comes to my voice and my sound. Exploring different sounds/genres. Got some great producers on my side so I feel blessed for that. Also thinking about getting involved in the management of a hot new artist. Listen out for more details.....

I interviewed Tevin Campbell the other day for Portia Presents. Had the flu and found out about the interview the night before but oh well, went just to meet him really. He was actually jokes and revealed some home truths about the industry. Tevin kept it real! Bumped into my girl Toya Berry there as well; she's doing her thing. Check out her blog. http://toyaberry.blogspot.com/. Straight after I had to dash to a video interview with Nothing But Talent. I will update you on my latest interviews/features soon

Bumped into Geek Squad!

I think another reason why I feel so blessed is because I have had more time for loved ones recently. They say behind every successful man is a strong woman; and that is indeed true, but I also believe us career driven, dominating, power women need that sweet romance, that blissful love and lets not forget just the comfort of cuddles at home, with that special person. You can work on your career but if you neglect those you love who are you gonna reap the rewards with?

The first range in my lingerie collection will represent that kind of woman; strong and sexy, powerful, but not too dominating; still classy, sweet, playful. Can't wait to share ;)

I'vebeen having a lot of fun filming, brainstorming and getting creative. It's all about carefully selecting who you keep around you. Without sounding like the snob I sometimes get called before the person meets me, it's true. With the right people behind you (and God) you'll always feel inspired, you'll always grow and work won't feel like work.

Oooh the other day me and my darling went on a date. He'll argue and say it wasn't a date because of how long we have been together but I don't hear that shit. I put my diamonds in my ears and make the extra effort of applying make up same way. I get excited. What? Gotta keep the good old romance.

We went to Crazy Bear for dinner (divine) and I went to Gordon Ramsays restaurant "Maze" for the first time. We got wasted! Good times. Then his boys met us there and we continued on to Ghost. First time I've been there too. Not bad! Good music and not too ram. I spent the next day nursing his hangover. Poor thing. I felt like a mother. Overall a success. That was the first time I'd stepped in a club in goodness knows how long

My head often feels like it's gonna explode what with it feeling like I'm constantly working on proposals and marketing plans but I'm not complaining.

God is good ;)

Got more to tell but have to go through some images from a shoot today and also from from last week.

Oh, I did a shoot for phytospecific the other day to be featured in Black Hair magazine. I just thought I'd tell you how amazing these hair products are. You need to get hold of them. They are available at the Hair Lounge and can be ordered over the phone 0208 969 9444. Ask for Charlotte Mensah, celebrity stylist. Tell her I sent ya and she might do a deal! I first came across the product when my hair sponsors http://adeephelan.co.uk/ introduced them to me. Ever since using them my hair has been like Indian hair! I also sported a kinda afro in the mag so look out for that! My hair is nuts!

Anyway sweetie pies

Speak again soon

Big shout out to Nutty Nrg and Ask Your Girl

http://twitter.com/PortiaFreno

Don't forget to follow me on Twitter. Today I gave a step by step guide on preparing yourself and getting photoshoot ready in less than an hour, no matter how bad the hangover! I got a lot of tweets of appreciation so I intend on doing that more often! I was actually doing the things I was tweeting myself as I had just been informed of a last minute shoot. That can happen at any time and you need to be ready!

Ciao for now

xx P xx

This butterfly cloud was sent to me as I lay in Holland Park. It was beautiful

Something to think about.....

2009-09-18T05:52:00.000-07:00

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo. I broke my promise!! Haha it's been way over a week hasn't it? Well sorry!!!! At least I write one sometimes! If it's any consolation I have been updating my secret diary in my Member's Only Section of my website, so if you feel you're missing out you know what to do!!

I have a mad love/hate relationship with this industry. But I'm not going to bang on or elaborate right now. I will be scheduling a live chat about it in my V.I.P section of my website and will pose a few questions beforehand for you to think about prior to the chat.

How are you all? Chasing dreams? Having faith? Striving high? I hope so. The world we live in now forces us to believe that to be successful is to be rich, or famous, or known by those "worth knowing". It isn't. Success is happiness and contentment. As long as I feel those things I couldn't give a damn who deems me "successful". This media culture will have you believe unless you're driving the fastest car, living in the biggest pad and mingling with all these celebs, you're not successful. People GET OUT OF THIS DREAM WORLD. Find your own reason to be happy, realise you ARE successful simply because you manage to deal with the everyday struggles of life and come out on top. You ARE successful because you kept your family well and healthy. You ARE successful because you raised a child. You are successful because you fought through an illness, or you graduated. You are successful for being you. Turn off your TVs. You won't miss a thing. You've seen Beyonce in that leotard before; it was just a different colour. You know that half of those rappers are liars, and should take up acting instead. You've heard it all before.

Focus on YOURSELF

Now is a very important time to believe in God. It has always been an important time, but now more than ever we are being tested. Have faith. Have morals. Be practical and ask yourself if the rubbish you are focusing on and making a regular part of your lives, is it really important?

Learn to love, share and cooperate and when you have learned to truly do that teach others to do the same

Search for a book called "That book". Not sure if you can still get hold of it, but try

Prioritise

Learn to love and support, rather than hate and compete

We are sharing one world; is it possible we are sharing one dream?

Peace

Portia Freno x

Portia Freno Celebrity Special feature!

2009-09-02T08:35:00.000-07:00

Check out my "Celebrity Special" feature for The Trusted Beauty Guide! Get advice on diet and exercise. I also reveal some of my beauty secrets. Thanks for reading xx

http://www.thetrustedbeautyguide.co.uk/#/portia-freno/4534571677

Just For You....

2009-09-02T08:19:00.000-07:00

Can you spot the rainbow? xx

2009-08-30T03:21:00.000-07:00

Well well well! I'm not even sure what to say..... I feel so guilty, honestly! Quite a few of you have been telling me off for abandoning my blog. Some have messaged nicely wondering when the next post will be. Others have sent me hate mail because I haven't updated. I find it really funny; "HOW DARE YOU NOT KEEP US POSTED YOU STUPID BI*@H". Lol. Funny thing is I'm not kidding. Luckily though, the majority have been nice, so nice in fact I feel obligated to write this. Unfortunately it's another quick one as I just stepped off a plane and I've got 101 things to do before hosting a party tonight. I feel shattered I'm telling ya. Happy, relaxed, but shattered.
So obviously I can't go back to the 90's or whenever it was that I last wrote a blog, so I will, in my next post as I have to go back out soon, try to fill you in with bits and bobs. Before I do that though, can I just make you aware of my late, or early, New Years resolution? To write a blog at least once a week. So the second you catch me slipping feel free to nag. Just not as rudely as some of the peeps mentioned earlier. Oh what the hell be as rude as you like. It's a free world.

Ok so I just got back from Antigua! I don't think anyone on that island will forget me. Not sure if that's good or bad. Had some shooting out there and also a nice little break though to be honest not a lot of chilling was done. Ok ok I'm guilty of not being able to relax; what's your point? Ya'll relax too much KMT. No but seriously guys you'd be proud; I didn't use my blackberry, didn't Tweet every 5 minutes, abandoned my emails, correction; most emails. Only spoke to those it's absolutely impossible not to cos if I don't chat to them I might just die (hopeless romantic) I planned on detoxing out there but I may have possibly ate more than I miraculously do here in London. Food was greeaaaaaat. Damn! Talking about the food already.

I had to do one of the shoots without make up on. And when I mean no make up on I mean NO make up on. Not the "we're gonna put on a lot of make up but do the natural look so it looks like you're not wearing any". NONE. I mean c'mon, at least a base coat or something? But no, nada, niente. That was challenging. Done a few like that, but this one was quite frustrating; hanging off random things in the immense heat, not able to keep my eyes open because of the sun and my exhaustion. Tryna pull off all the different looks without any make up to accentuate my features. But I've already seen a couple and I'm more than happy; shocked even. I suppose that's when you can really call yourself a model; when you pull off a successful shoot with absolutely zilch to cheat with but yourself. Just you, yourself and your skin lol. Not sure when I'll be able to post up pics but keep checking the blog.

Damn it's midday; I've got a lot to do. There really should be more hours in the day. The mad thing is it's the first time in ages that I've actually found the time to sit down and write a blog, and I haven't the time to sit down and finish the blog! lol. Consider this a short and sweet apology.........forgiven?

Portia xxxx

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2009-06-09T02:42:00.000-07:00

Where do I start? It has been a blur of parties, preparation, work and madness!

I was booked for a couple of appearances at events and also to host a few parties so it's fair to say I have had little sleep. Last week at Vendome was crazy; I'm quite ashamed to say I got rather tipsy; after 2 bottles of Grey Goose and a bottle of Champs the club refused to send any more drinks to my table! I was horrified! But ever so grateful the next morning when I realized what more alcohol would have done to me. TQ came down, Kano came down and performed, Bashy showed his face. Monday nights really are getting packed in there; it's madness.

To be honest the whole raving scene isn't my favourite thing, but I'm getting paid to party so can hardly complain. But it is hard work! I'm serious! Especially when you're ill but have to soldier through. I've had tonsillitis for the past 2 weeks! lol but haven't had a chance to rest it off. And I refuse to take all those government drugs; that crap that masks the pain but doesn't naturally solve the problem, so I was just dealing with it. It was only 2 days ago, when I left my friends house, that I left with a bottle of Benilyn that he put in a plastic bag for me. He said the stuff would knock me out! I believed him cos he's always drowsy on some kinda rubbish like that. Usually I lecture him for overdosing on all his medicinal substances (he has a whole windowsill full of drugs) but I was feeling so rubbishy and it was late and I wanted to just knock out as soon as my head hit the pillow. So I took one or two teaspoons.... Damn....the next day I was like a zombie! I felt soooo tired; not sure if it's worth it! The same friend offered to drop me round soup and dvd's but I said no thank you. I felt bad as he has a bad shoulder and should be resting himself! Not driving around playing Superman!

On Sunday I went to the Summer Ball!! It was so much fun! And at my favourite stadium ;) (Emirates) Over 55,000 people came to watch artists such as Leona Lewis, Dizzee Rascal, Alesha Dixon, Ciara, Akon, Shontelle, Sway, JLS, Lionel Richie, Calvin Harris, The Noisettes, Mark Ronson and many more. I was on the vip balcony with all the artists, though the only one I was excited about seeing was Ciara; she's hot. Is it bad that one of the highlights for me was the food? I love my food and the food was great, lol. Oh apart from the chicken. A little seasoning would have been welcoming.....

As usual Leona brought a tear to my eye with her rich silky tones, and Alesha impressed me with her stage performance; I'm not a huge fan of her but she has my respect; she's good at what she does and she owned that stage! And I don't even need to mention the Noisettes; love their style!

As usual Akon had to receive the biggest welcome and threw himself into the crowd as he always does. Lol. He's mad. His dad found it hilarious when he was being thrown up and down by the audience. His father is a lovely man; I spent a bit of time with him as it was the first time I'd met him.

Another highlight; walking into the celebrity gift lounge. I decided to walk in alone knowing that if I walked in with Akon they would only give me stuff cos I was with him, or they would ignore me and concentrate on him! So I thought let me walk in and see what the deal is...... So I walk past the first table counting 5....4.....3....2.. "Hi there Portia" YES Thank Goodness! Lol. If I didn't get stopped I woulda been pissed. The people are explaining their product to me, this product, that product, dropping a load of stuff into bags for me and I'm thinking there are some homeless broke starving people out there that would really appreciate this rubbish. These rich celebrities do not need all this stuff yet they get it on a daily basis! Don't get me wrong, I know it's free promo for the brands but it still feels a little wrong. Anyway after signing several guest books thanking them for the goods I spotted Sony giving away the brand new mobile phones. So I walked past slowly.....did anyone stop me? NO! And I'm proud; there was no way I was stopping unless I was stopped lol. So I kept it moving. I was asked my sizes for various shoes and clothing and I am getting sent some goods. And I can't wait for my pink Aviators. I tried on the brown ones but the pink ones looked hot in the pic so they said they would send me some. Cheers. Oh and I also got a load of Mac goodies ;)

But again, the highlight for me was the food

Did I mention that I am off to the Bahamas next month? No? Well, I am off to the Bahamas next month. You know now ;)

Can't wait!!

Writing this is taking longer than expected because I keep flippin coughing!

I haven't been working out...............what???? I haven't had the time plus I've been ill; I wouldn't be able to breathe if I jumped on a treadmill right now!!

My mum and sisters came down to a London a couple of times; the minute they leave I miss them immediately. My sisters bring me joy.... they are my precious little princesses! With attitude! lol. Maya has an obsession with photography right now; she's only 5 but so clever and has an eye for detail. She really is something else. The other day we went down to my girls allotment to help her water her little cabbages and brocolli lol and my sister kept grabbing my blackberry so she could take pics of flowers. And she's such a flippin perfectionist it takes about 5 minutes to take each shot. Aww I love her. I'm gonna invest in a really good professional camera for her when she's older. She's only 5, maybe it's a bit soon lol. Though I'm sure she'd actually master it; she's that intelligent.

I am actually looking for a new manager. I'm tired of trying to juggle everything alone; it's hard to get certain things moving when your time is divided multiple ways. I had to drop old management because they didn't share the same vision as me. And if I don't mentally click with someone it's not going to work. So next week I will be setting up some meetings, etc as this week I haven't got the time.

I wanna go and make a hot drink; maybe with a little pick me up in it ;)

Thank you to all those who voted for Charity Skin Deep and hit me up on FaceBook; appreciated

Portia xx

Get To Voting!!!

2009-06-05T09:39:00.000-07:00

Please Please PLEASE guys, do something good today and vote for charity SKIN DEEP. It takes 20 seconds but will make a HUGE difference! It's the last two days of voting so your votes are crucial! Click on VOTE NOW under Shabana's profile, CONNECT VIA FACEBOOK, then click on VOTE NOW again. Hit me up after you've voted so that I can thank ya ;) Here's the link http://www.greatbritons.ba.com/users/8327 Thank you xxxx

World Star Hip Hop; Being Charlie Sloth

2009-06-04T02:52:00.001-07:00

Check me out on the show; over 1121382 views already!!! Can you believe it? Madness. Anyway the show is big and if you don't watch it regularly you really should start. Charlie is big in the game and is guaranteed a lot of success. He caught up with me at an Adidas exhibition. I had a cold but still managed to make it down as it was good for networking and Ara made sure I did plenty of that! He also tried to cause a bit of a stir by promoting the vid as "Portia and Charlie Sloth kissing" lol and according to some of the viewers Charlie and I have been dating for over 6 months! lol. See Ara! That's how rumours start! Happy watching and leave your comments xx

Thank you baby. To us xx

2009-05-28T12:37:00.000-07:00

This girl thinks like me..... I'm loving it!

2009-05-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

Puppies, Parties and......Portia ;)

2009-05-20T06:06:00.000-07:00

Helloooooo

Had a wicked night last night! Went for a lovely meal in Nobu Mayfair with my girl and an old friend; it was good to catch up as I hadn't seen him for years. We were there until close; eating a loooaaaad of food and drinking them out of business!

So it only made sense to pop next door to Funky Buddah after and get on down! I rarely rave but when I do it always tends to be uexpected and last minute; and they always turn out to be the best nights! Saw some old faces and friends in there and my girl is a party animal so I think we can more or less say that once we hit the club the party really started! Lol. Ask anyone who was there last night ;)

Anyway we like to do things properly so after Nobu and after Funky B, we went to Sanctum for more drinks. My friend just bought the place so it's only a few days old but it's absolutely beautiful with a rooftop hot tub. Wish I had known and I woulda brought my bikini with me! Anyway we didn't stay there too long; just long enough for a few cocktails and then me and my girl realised it was probably time to head home. I'm not even sure how we managed to get a black cab; I just remember it being a quick process and hassle-free and that we were home in minutes! Oh I love London.....

I'm feeling a little rough now though! Just went through a litre of water and still got a headache :( I was actually supposed to meet a friend for brunch at 11am but only remembered at 12 lol. Another thing that got cancelled is studio; was supposed to be in there recording today and tomorrow but it got cancelled, which is quite a pain as I'm fully booked up with work for the next few weeks so just trying to find some extra hours in the day to fit it in.

Well I must say you are an impatient lot! You've been emailing me constantly about my lingerie line ever since I mentioned it! Well you'll be glad to know that I get sent some samples next week so I will keep you posted.... ;) Can't wait can't wait can't wait!!

Ok so me and my girl have fallen in love with these puppies but we have to go on a waiting list for them :( But we are gonna try to pull a few strings (lol, we're on a puppy mission!) and see what we can do because they are sooo adorable and we love them! I will let you know my progress on my puppy mission; wish me luck!

Check out my latest feature for national newspaper the Daily Sport; I'm not always such a good girl ;) http://www.dailysport.com/view.asp?ID=928

My head is banging and I wanna get a few hours sleep in before getting up and working on some sketches.

Stay Positive

P x

x x x x

2009-05-13T13:40:00.000-07:00

Heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeey!

I'm in such a good mood!! Lol, just finished singing and dancing around my room; you know what I'm talking about girls; hairbrush or remote as a microphone, banging out the dance moves. I'm so so so so tired but so so so so excited about things I can't talk about but can most definitely think about and get excited about lol. I've had butterflies for the last couple of days but that's another story..... ;). That's more of a personal thing but because of the butterflies I haven't been able to sleep a wink. Usually I don't sleep cos my minds just buzzing buzzing buzzing but for the last couple of days there has only been one thing on my mind.....

It's funny how things turn out.......... ;)

Anyway, I should probably brush on my last couple of days.... Ok I can't even remember lol. Ummmmm.... Ok....Oh yes! Well the usual really; but only one shoot since my last blog. (I think that was only a fey days ago) Did 2 interviews/features. Didn't work out. Actually worked out once. Ate a load of donuts and chocolate.....

On Monday I went straight from a "workout" in the gym down to my boys studio to catch up. Although an artist himself, he was working on a track for/with a boy group who I have to say have great talent. I had never heard of them before and still haven't managed to check out their stuff but I listened to them record a whole track and they are all wicked singers and lovely lovely people so I wish them and know they will get all the success possible. They are called Frixion so check them out! Can I quickly add that during that time my producing skills came to light and I discovered I had yet another talent lol! But I'm not actually joking! I just don't stop lol. I'm gonna do an engineering course anyway; I'm working on my music so I might as well produce some of my own tunes as well

Sorry I just had to take a quick break. I just had to go hard to Donaeo; it's a Funky Movement! Ok I'm back now.... Ok after recording was over we had a quick listening session and I got to hear some EXCLUSIVE stuff from the biggest group about to hit the music scene HARD; FDM, as well as some Neyo tunes that none of you have heard! Aren't you jealous? I know Neyo pissed me off not too long ago but oh my goodness that guy has mad talent. And the boys are heading in the same direction. Many of you probably already know about FDM and if you don't you're about to know. They recently got signed to Neyo! I'm sooooo excited for them as I know they have been on the scene for a while now and deserve everything that is coming their way. They are crazy talented, can dance AND sing (at the same time lol) and have a certain vibe about them that means they will always stand out from the rest. It's mad how exciting it is when something so exciting happens for someone else close to you! Well I predicted it anyway, lol. Well done boys...well done V ;) They are touring with Neyo and Kerri Hilson very soon; check out their site and get the tour dates; the first London show is already sold out so hurry hurry hurry! I can't explain to you how dope their album is..... http://www.myspace.com/fdmonline

So anyway the listening session was a little treat for me. I love listening sessions anyway; have had a few with artists such as Kardinal Offishall, Akon, Ray Lavender and I have had the pleasure of spending time with them in the studio recording, as well as Leona Lewis, so I'm fortunate to have been able to spend time with such musically talented people. I mean Akon and Kardinal Offishall...don't judge just what you hear them release themselves..... Akon is controlling about 70% of urban music; if he's not on the track he produced the track lol. And Kardinall Offishall; he's big, trust me. A lot of people's talents remain behind the camera; but that's because most of the time that's where the money is..... ;)

After getting home from the studio at about 3am I was on the phone until about 7am! Then I had a cold shower and got straight back to work! Nutter!!

I was supposed to meet up with Akon over the weekend; not just for a catch up with a very close friend but because I wanted to interview him for Portia Presents. Despite him being a good friend I won't hold back with the questions; many of you have emailed me with questions you want me to ask him and don't worry, I will! Most of it I already know anyway.... but I will just have to act surprised when he answers. Anyway, I didn't end up meeting him and a lot of my Twitter and Facebookers know why...... because just before I was on my way my friend called me sayng he had made me an apple crumble! Well c'mon what would you do???? I mean I was shattered anyway and I thought it was such a sweet gesture that I though oh what the heck, meet me at my house lol. Awww J I love you sweetie, you know me too well ;)

Anyway it's not a biggie; I'll get the interview wrapped up over the next few weeks.

I am also looking for up and coming talent to interview for the show, though I am being selective, hit me up!!

I keep having to stop writing so that I can dirty dance to the slow jams that keep playing! I think I should change the cd now..... Ok I'm locked into Kiss! Oh even worse.... now I'm tryna fight temptation to sing and dance to Destiny's Child! Love them.... Get back together get back together!!!!

Ok my darlings I have to go; two of my girls just turned up plus I just remembered I've left a crumble in the oven! (I just don't stop) I'm tryna put some weight back on though! I've gone from a 10 to an 8 and I'd feel like a 10yr old if I went even smaller to a 6; yuk! Luckily my bum hasn't gone but it's heading that way if I don't start getting some more sleep and less stress!

Love you all ;)

Keep your mind right and your body tight!

P xxxx

No make up, no sleep and check out my swollen eye!! :(

2009-05-10T16:03:00.000-07:00

Baby don't tell me you miss me, you love me
Don't whisper gently that you can't forget me
Tonight, cause I've heard it all before
Just turn away, don't play that game
Baby I don't want to anymore

Let it all fade away
Don't you know that love is gone
It's too late
Everything fades away
Nothing ever stays the same
Baby, no no no

Don't tell me you're sorry you hurt me
How many times can I give in
How many battles can you win
Oh don't beg for mercy
Tonight, cause I can't take any more
Just turn around, don't break me down
Baby I don't love you like before

Let it all fade away
Don't you know that love is gone
It's too late
Everything fades away
Nothing ever stays the same
Baby
Nothing ever stays the same

It only fades, it only fades

Sit down; let me tell you a quick story.....

2009-05-10T15:23:00.000-07:00

Once there was a prince walking through the woods. He spotted bulls eye targets painted on many trees, and in the very centre of each one was an arrow and no other marks on the tree.

"Bring me the archer that has done this as I must have him for my body guard", he said.
So they searched and they found a young lad who claimed to have shot the arrows.

"It's amazing how you can do this each time on the first shot" said the prince. "If you can demonstrate this shooting to me you can have up to half my kingdom and be my personal aide."

So the day and time was set for the demonstration and the young lad led them into the woods with his bow and arrows (and a bucket of paint with a brush). As the prince watched, the young lad aimed at a perfectly clean tree, shot the arrow in, then quickly painted a bulls eye around it so the arrow was dead centre.

"You see", he said. "A bulls eye every time on the first shot".

Things are not always what they seem

The real Lioness......is tired tired tired!

2009-05-07T16:23:00.000-07:00

The plan was to upload vids and pics of my week as there is so much to tell you and I thought it easier if I just let you watch what I have been up to! But just realised how much time and patience that involves, plus some of the pics are on my phone not my digital camera and although I have the wire the laptop is being a moron, so.... I guess you will just have to wait. I'm getting bored of always writing about what I have been getting up to cos I feel like I am repeating myself; most days involve shoots, filming, now the gym ( ;) ) and constant meetings and I am sure you already know that so.... gonna brush on my week then gonna share something with you. Ok so I had about 4 shoots this week, got tortured by a personal trainer (I left him after 20 minutes after finding out what he just made me do was only a warm up...Murderer!! ) One particular meeting I had this week has had me quite excited; although it is early days it is actually a huge charity project and I will be their spokeswoman!! My first proper spokesmodel job; I am so proud! Really proud to be representing as well cos it's an amazing and inspiring project. And I love that as a model I have yet another reason to show that I am more then a pretty face; being a spokesmodel is not as easy as you may think. I'm looking forward to attending events and appearing on tv shows to help spread the word. The woman behind the campaign is lovely and so intelligent; and it's not a coincidence that she is a Libra lol! What can I say, we just got it going on! Talking about Librans, I forgot to mention in one of my last posts that model Saffi Karina (Playboy, and I shot Flavour magazine with her) was also a judge for the semi-finals for the top UK model search for Juice magazine. Did I mention that competition? Saffi, Jessica Rabbit (akamissrabbit.com) and myself were asked to judge and find the finalists. The winner will be sent to New York and will shoot the cover; something I recently did! I will let you know when that cover is out. Literally all the finalists were beautiful and it was quite hard to let some go. That day was quite surreal actually; I had girls screaming saying "oh my God I just touched Portia Freno" !!?? MADNESS!! Anyway, good luck to the finalists, see you at the finals and you are all beautiful and intelligent enough to make it! xx

I'm actually really shattered today; literally didn't sleep a wink and just stayed up and continued working. I'm chilling now though and I'm gonna go and eat again in a minute; made a lovely Thai green curry which tastes off the hook. BEEP BEEP!

My favourite shoot this week was one I did yesterday. It was on location and I had a sneaky peek at some of the pics on the photographers laptop and I must say I was quite amazed; I really put my game on yesterday as it was quite high fashion/edgy and as you know you can't just stand there and do the same dry poses. It was a very natural shoot though; I barely had make up on which is great; to be a successful model you can't hide behind pretty make up; modelling is all in the eyes, the expression, the pose. It's a lot easier sometimes if the make up is amazing as you instantly look good without trying. Anyway was really really happy with what I saw and I'm dying to show you but can't post up ANY pics obviously until the images are used. You know how it goes :( And remember most new/best pics will only be on my official website as I don't post them up on my blog, social networks etc as people can steal them! The pic above was shot by Omar Mckenzie; he's great to work with!

After the shoot I went to a shisha restaurant and smoked peach and watermelon shisha for hours! It was great! lol. I even learned some Persian and apparently I am very good! I may record myself for you guys; I learned some naughty stuff as well lol. What? Never know when you might need it ;) Had some food and before I knew it it was 1am. Was gonna take a late night creep to Finchley to see a friend but he was tired and I was shattered so got picked up and called it a day. But no! Came home to a million and one emails and have been awake ever since! lol! Diaries of an insomniac and workaholic.... I am actually supposed to be in the studio as we speak but my BlackBerry is buggered somehow and I feel unwell so had to cancel.

Oh I might be an ambassador for a really big company; cross your fingers for me and I will let you know if it happens and if it does then I will tell you who for!

I think my feature with the Daily Sport runs on Tuesday but I will let you know for definite over the weekend.

Keep the 25th of May free guys. I have been booked to host a party with Buffie The Body. For those of you who for some reason have not heard of her she is a model with like the biggest boootaaay lol. She's shot covers for all the major American mens mags. Her line of work is quite different to mine but she is huge in the States so again, flattered to be getting booked with such known models. Google her for her website cos I haven't even checked it myself and don't know what it is. So she'll be flying down to host Juice magazines finals afterparty. Email me for more info and guestlist. This one's gonna be crazy, trust me!

I've just remembered I was supposed to share something with you right? Maybe later or tomorrow; belly's rumbling, sorry!

In a bit!

Lioness xx

2009-05-03T03:04:00.000-07:00

Hello again lovely readers, just another quick one as I've got a very busy day today. Surely you must be proud of me for the regularity in which I am now blogging!

You will not be so proud, however, to know that I have not been working out as religiously as originally planned....Oh well, don't need to anyway! Blah to working out! No that's not true, we all need regular exercise and I plan on getting back on it next week. Planning and doing, two different things!

Today I have a shoot, then I have to rush to the Semi-Finals for Juice Magazines next top Uk model search; the winner flies to New York, shoots the cover, etc. I am a judge and I will be judging alongside top model from the US Jessica Rabbit. I am more than happy to help to pick a model I feel has not only the beauty but the talent and the drive to actually make it in this industry. It really takes a lot more than looks and I hope we find a girl with the full package! Lol, have to laugh at something my friend wrote on their Twitter about every girl thinking they are a model now. It started a little debate actually, and it's true, he and many others are right; doing a couple of photoshoots doesn't make you a model. If that's the case everyone is a model because anyone can pay a photographer to make them look good! It takes a long time of castings, jobs (PAID JOBS) and experience to be able to call yourself a model. There's a big difference between an aspiring model, and a working model. Anyone can look good with a good photographer and make up, but without those, can you still work the camera? Who are you modelling for? I could go and grab a girl off road, stick her in front of a good photographer and get some great shots; is she now a model? Lol. Get real. This is for all those aspiring models and working models who are striving towards success; not claiming it before they've even achieved anything!

After the shoot and the judging, I have a meeting with a woman regarding a charity campaign I may be modelling for, so I will keep you posted as and when I get more info.

In regards to my lingerie line, one or two things needed to get sorted asap so the team have flown to Asia for a couple of meetings...leaving me behind! I could do with a bit of sun! (real sun, not this British crap) But I know there is too much to be done here and I haven't the time to be jetting off. The meetings are important but nothing the rest of the team can't deal with.

The other day I mentioned I was tired of working and shooting and filming and writing and producing etc. I then got about 30 emails asking me if I'm "retiring" LOL! They were the funniest emails I've had in a while! Retiring! Get real! I'm not even close to the success I've got in mind. It was funny cos I know I've still got so much to do but also sweet that some people believed I was in a position to "retire". Lol. Hopefully before I am 26 I can not retire, but really kick back and start a family etc, but I do plan on retiring properly before I am 30; don't wanna be middle-aged and still hustling, no way! That's when I'll stop and give my children/husband 100% of my time. I'm not gonna be a Madonna whos kids never see her!

I'm just about to answer some questions for the Daily Sport so I'll let you know when you can read the interview

I just wanna thank Mr weatherman for the sun; keep it shining

Keep your mind right and your body tight

Lioness xx

I'm on a roll!!

2009-04-27T12:21:00.000-07:00

2 days in a row! Good huh? And I'll tell you what else I've been keeping up; my gym visits! Ok I've only worked out a few times since starting last week, but trust me that is a few times more than usual! I just ran up hill for half an hour, did some body toning with the personal trainer and now I'm gonna go and do a load of sit ups and squats. So be proud of me! I guess I've never really bothered with working out as I've always been fortunate enough to be able to eat as much as I do (you wouldn't believe how much unless you saw it; even then you may not) and still maintain my shape/weight whatever. But it's important to reach high levels of fitness, plus working out releases lots of endorphins (the happy hormone, lol) Well I think that's what they are called, endorphins, I've probably spelt it wrong; I will google it later and find out. All I know is you feel great after a good workout; even if you can't walk after! And yes I am still talking about the gym.

So, I'm gonna get back to the gym, possibly jump in the jacuzzi for 10 mins if I've got time, and then my friend is gonna come and pick me up and take me out to........eat. Lots of food. Kinda defeats the whole purpose of this self-torture thing but oh well. I would have done it anyway, exercise or no exercise.

Such a shame that the weather has taken a turn for the worst :( But this is England so didn't expect much else. To be honest I'm not too bothered; at the moment I'm just working on my little secret project, my lingerie line and my body so I'm in hibernation anyway! I wouldn't have much time to soak up the sun. Though it's always lovely when the sun is shining...motivates you a little more.

Anyway my lovelies, just tryna update regularly so that I don't get any more complaints ;)

Maybe even speak to you later?

Portia xxxx

....

2009-04-25T10:17:00.000-07:00

Today should be a sad day but I see it as a celebration of someone so caring, so lovely and generous. Today is a celebration of her life and a chance to remember how grateful we should be that someone so loving and beautiful was ever a part of our lifes. She still is, always will be; will never be forgotten.

Love you always. You didn't deserve what happened to you but now you are in a better place. I hope so anyway. That's what everyone says right? Call me selfish but I'd rather you be here with me than in that "better place". But I will see you soon. R.I.P. Love you always.

Today I was with my family all day; later I will drive back down to London

Soooo.....

I know that once again I have neglected my blogging duties! I'm actually considering removing it; I have a much more personal blog on my Members Site plus I don't see the point in having a blog if it's not updated regularly. A blog is supposed to have new posts constantly; really I should be posting up everything when I'm out and about, at meetings, shoots, filming, at home, with friends, whatever. I should be blogging and posting up pics and videos so you get to really share my world. But to be honest that's not really my thing; some things have got to be private! But my Members do get a much better blog; more personal, more vids etc.

I don't even know where to start. Ummmmm.... ok lets talk work. I have a new feature on my website called Portia Presents. You will basically get to see me interview celebs, up and coming talent etc, and if you're lucky you may even get to follow me to some events or shoots. But it's all presented by moi! My entrepeneurial streak meant that I wasn't happy with just the workshops, the Members site, the charity etc. I need my own show now! Lol. Produced and directed by me myself and I. The other day I interviewed rising star, Actor Adam Deacon; you need to google him! He's got some huge achievements under his belt and he's only 25! It was great to also get in the studio with him as well and speak about his musical talent. I love talking to multi-talented people! I will let you know when the show is up and running; still got a lot of interviews and filming to do and trying to work out what goes where, for example what will go on my public site and what will go on my private one; gotta save the best features for my Members!

So I've been working on my show, lining up interviews etc. Another much bigger project is my LINGERIE LINE! Woo Hoo!! I got approached by a company to be the face of my own lingerie line; yes they have in-house designers but I have also brought one of my own on board and I still get to create EVERYTHING. I'm not taking any shortcuts! I will create and design the whole line myself and I already have a few different ranges in mind. I got asked to do this a little while ago but obviously negotiating and reading through contracts can take some time! But since mentioning it I have literally been asked constantly about it so I am sure it will sell out before it hits stores! I want to create some gorgeous, sexy, playful but classy pieces, something that represents all my personalities and also many other women out there! I feel so blessed to have this opportunity and I promise you all that I will take my time with it and come up with some quality designs. Nothing less than the best! lol. For more information on my up and coming lingerie line email Bookingenquiries@PortiaFreno.com

There is another EVEN BIGGER project that I am working on! Lol, but as I mentioned in my last post now is not the time to be talking about that.

So I think it's fair to say that I have been working hard on all my entrepreneur projects, and the website etc that for the last few weeks I have hardly been a model! For me modelling was a stepping stone, a hobby I was passionate about and still am. But as I start to grow and progress I'm finding that modelling is only like 40% of what I do at the moment, which I think is great, cos it shows that I am versatile and capable of a lot more. However I have still found the time to fit in a few shoots over the last few weeks as work is work and I am still a model, regardless. You may have noticed that I rarely post up new pics; I don't see the point in posting stuff up on facebook really so all my images will only be used for my websites. Obviously I can't post up anything until the images have been used for the publication or brand, but even after that it's not really about Facebook, lol. Ok I might treat you facebookers now and then! lol.

Ok so everyone's gone Twitter mad at the moment? It is kinda cool, but do you not think a little inner? I mean who wants to know if you've just been in the shower or what programme you're watching? I try it every now and then but I'm not gonna lie, I feel a little silly sometimes. I mean would you stop a stranger in the street and tell them what you're cooking that night? NO. Would you stop a stranger and tell them what programme you watched earlier? NO. I dunno...thnk I'm gonna have to have a little think about this Twitter thing; sometimes I like it sometimes I hate it. Twitter is still on probation

Ok that's most of work out of the way (well as much as I can speak about) so how about pleasure..... Well I'm not a party girl so I can't say I've been raving it up hard and I don't really have many stories to tell you about mad nights out or getting mad drunk; I'm a bit bored of stuff like that at the moment. I like to have a nce night out every once in a while, and the best ones are prob the ones you don't plan! For example my girl picked me up from a shoot the other day; on the way back we hit a little bar in Clapham, then went on to SO;UK, then when she was dropping me home we passed through Boujis and I had a fantastic time! Oh but some MAN stole my jacket from my table! Ummm...What is THAT all about???? Weirdo. I can just imagine him wearing it now. Freaks me out. And the night wasn't over there! Once we left Boujis we headed to The Royal Garden Hotel for some munch as the food there is amazing. Prawns, grilled salmon, rice, potatoes, chicken soup...YUM! Most people know about my huge appetite and the amount I eat, despite being a size 10 (size 8 if I've got an important shoot coming up lol)

Oh, talking about sizes, I've been hitting the gym hard! Well I say hard, hard for me as I am SO not a workout girl...But I am now! Yoga, pilates, cardio, power plate, abs work, you name it I'm doing it!! I'm not out of shape, and I'm not overweight, but there is always room for improvement and I'm a fussy cow, even the personal trainer told me that! Oh and can you believe that apparently I have too much body fat...on my arse!! Well excuse me but since when was that a problem? What is the world coming to? Lol. I already feel like I am slowly losing my arse as the trainer works me out more and more. Sly ones......I am fighting a bum war, and I will win!! My bum can be as big as it likes as long as my waist stays itsy bitsy; which is hard for a big eater like me! Seriously I don't know how I do it..... but wish me luck and pray that I stick to it; I want to be back in the same shape I was when I shot SHOW magazine and also with a lot of promo coming up for the lingerie line, I can't be any less than perfect. No pressure......

In between working and chilling I've been on a madness with friends; driving death traps, falling in and out of love, eating 8 course meals and late night milkshakes.....I won't elaborate....

I actually wrote all of the above yesterday (Saturday) but I am continuing today! I got a little distracted yesterday, then I drove back down to London, went home, bathed etc then he came round........ then he left..... with ALL of my mint ice cream! By the time he left it was just after midnight which is still very early for me so I read for a little bit but realised I was bored and it was Saturday night! I would have gone with him to play pool and eat some food but wasn't allowed! Kmt. Luckily just as I was contemplating what to do my friend who lives local called me and popped round, kept me company....And now it's Sunday and I prob will not do much today but cook and clean and a bit of writing...oh and some sit ups! Was meant to go for a steam but someone let me down to go and do some running competition!! Pfffttt!! I guess I could go alone; I'm just making excuses.....

Anyway, I've missed out sooo much but like I said earlier unless I'm gonna blog regularly I will probably forget or miss out lots of important stuff. Ok I am going to try to blog regularly again like before; I promise! This week is a trial; lets see how much I blog! Starting from....NOW!

Ciao!

I'm still alive!!!!

2009-04-08T04:49:00.001-07:00

Yep I am still here, still alive!! I have been getting hounded about my blog, and you're gonna get even more frustrated when I tell you that I am still not revealing much right now...I'm working on a new project which is gonna require time and patience from you guys as well as myself! I may post bits and bobs up on here every so often, so don't become a stranger to the site, but in regards to what I'm working on I am legally bound and can't reveal a thing, seriously! Best things come to those that wait though, and any of you that know me know that when I am quiet I am up to something.... ;) So please just bear with me cos right now I really do not have the time to be blogging/facebooking/twittering everything that is going on with me right now!! All I need is your continued support so that this new project becomes the best it can be

Just a quick shout out to Ask Your Girl; they hit me up recently saying they had some goodies for me! So I met up with the brains behind the fast-growing clothing line, Caj and picked up the hottest baby pink playerette jacket ever! As well as some swagger champ sunglasses and an Ask Your Girl t-shirt. The clothes are looking big and we discussed some business as well.... Seriously everywhere I look now I keep seeing the brand so it's a good look for them!

I'm getting excited about your emails enquiring about my lingerie line; looks like it might sell out the minute it hits stores! Lol. There will def be something for everyone so keep an eye out......

Love you all! Stay happy, healthy, positive...Live your Life to the fullest!

Enjoy this sunny weather

Portia xx

http://www.AskYourGirl.com

xxxx

2009-03-11T16:18:00.000-07:00

Love Your Life!

2009-03-10T09:39:00.000-07:00

Hey!

I am going to type this sooooo fast as I have to go and do something but I've been dying to write something for the last few days but haven't had a chance to!

It feels like things are changing for me and like I am going in a direction I never imagined myself going in; it's hard to explain but doors are opening and although it isn't the path I necessarily imagined myself taking, it is still an exciting and challenging journey so I am willing to go for it!

Anyway, I guess you will hear/see/know more on that as and when things start to develop...

Last week I hosted the Love Ur Life Charity Date Auction and it was so much fun! I was presenting alongside Little Man and he had me in stitches!

The auction was aimed to raise money for the Terrence Higgins Trust; an organisation that raises awareness on sexual health issues; very important I must say! Particularly for young adults/teenagers as they are getting more and more careless these days!

So, the Kaizen Creatives got 10 gorgeous guys and girls together and they were up for auction! It was good because the incentives to bid were great; free tickets to concerts such as Musiq SoulChild and T-Pain, as well relaxing spa pampering days.

The acts were fantastic; Wre-Asha's voice was big! Soulful and powerful, she rocked it Erykah Badu style. Little Man tried to woo me with a rose that was given to him! Pfttt..I wasn't having any of it.

One of the beautiful Auctionesses!

Testing the goods for the ladies...I'm such a good host!

Little Man tells them where they are going on their date!

Bruno was for sale!

This girl's legs were like never-ending!

Al was gorgeous! Some lucky girl got him for fifty squid!

Keston, Keston, Keston...lol!

The highest Auctioness!

Wreh-Asha showed the UK how it's done

Well done to the organisers!

Your hosts ;)

I wasn't even able to stay for the after party so I rushed off, jumped in the car and was on my way to Penthouse for my friend's night; it was CRAZY!

Now I've got a bit of research to do....also something I am very nervous about...

Anyway John Legend is having a party to celebrate his artist Vaughn Anthony's album launch, so if I get the time (and the energy) to head down there tonight I may do....

Have a great week ;)

Porsh xx

2009-03-08T18:37:00.000-07:00

If you can't handle me at my worst, you don't deserve me at my best

2009-03-08T09:03:00.000-07:00

Back To Normal Then!

2009-03-04T01:46:00.000-08:00

Ok so it's official that I am back to my old self; I was up working until after 3am this morning, then rather than go straight to sleep I had a little munch. As normal, my phone calls started at around 6.30am, so I was back awake again after a couple of hours sleep. I have a 2pm appointment but still so much to do before then and I'd really like a 30 minute power nap before heading towards my destination. Not going to happen! But I love it!

Some of you are asking why my last post got edited; lets just say I am already taking back my comments....I was too hasty to get upset and write something that in actual fact isn't really true. It all got sorted and I realised I was being ungrateful and that the friend is an amazing friend; and an unconditional one at that. I really am too dramatic and emotional and I need to work on that!

I had a quick peep at some of my website videos; there will soon be some up both on my website and my Members Only site for you all to enjoy. The next few weeks are going to be mayhem but I can't wait until certain things are concrete so that I can really fill you in

Until then...

Ciao xx

I WILL NOT LOSE!

2009-03-02T02:10:00.000-08:00

(by the way I think Jay Z is big but I'm just feeling the tune and feel like I can relate to it in many ways
)

So I've been having an awful month and an even worse week; but blah blah blah who cares? I've already missed out on a couple of things this week (yes I know this week has only just started but I was supposed to attend some things this morning ((Monday))and due to some let downs was unable to. ..)

Anyhoo..... I WILL NOT LOSE! ;)

I am off to London today despite the disappointment as I have a run through for an event I am presenting. There is also so much to be done this week including shoots; Yeaaaahhh!!! Feels like I haven't done a shoot for ages despite it probably not being more than 2 or 3 weeks. Actually that is ages. But I think it's safe to say I am back to work! Part of me tells me I haven't had enough chill out time but I haven't much choice as some of these things I was booked for quite a while ago, plus the other part of me is itching to get back to doing what I do best

The sun is shining, and I heard it is in London too ;)

Your girl is back

Love ya

Porsh xx

Still recovering... :(

2009-02-23T12:54:00.000-08:00

I didn't sleep a wink last night I was in so much pain. Then I spent the whole of today in hospital which was a nightmare but my girl stayed with me the whole day which I am very grateful for. Without best friends you will not get through a single thing.

I'm upset because I've had to miss Juice magazine's private launch party tonight. I've also missed out on a lot of work, shoots, meetings; I was supposed to meet up with some people that had flown down from the States for tonights party as well. Well I guess there will be other times and rather than focus on what I am missing out on I'm gonna have to just focus on getting better

I'm tired already from trying to write so I will have to get back to you later.

Sorry to be such a bore; I promise after I've had my rest and recovery time I will come back with a bang ;)

Love ya

P xx

Recovering....

2009-02-19T05:18:00.000-08:00

I'm a bit down at the mo....had an operation yesterday and now I really do not feel myself and I am unable to get on with certain things. I'm angry with myself for letting it affect me more than I thought it would, but I'm sure that after a couple of days chilling out I will soon be back on the road.

My launch party went really well despite the fact that I was 4 hours late! It really was not intentional; I've sent out apologies to all my supporters and 99% of them understand lol. The other 1% said that they will never forgive me! Even when I did arrive I was a bit distant as I had yesterdays op on my mind...But a big thank you to all of those that came; especially those that came at 7 and actually waited untill 11.30pm for me to arrive just to meet me. That is real support and it got me a bit tearful lol. But maybe that was because I was emotional anyway.

My "rock" came with me yesterday and has been an absolute Godsend looking after me since. I really am counting my blessings right now.

I guess all there is for me to do right now is search for my holiday destination and recover....

P xx

Haven't been very well...but a surprise made it all better!

2009-02-16T05:06:00.000-08:00

I haven't been very well recently; plus I've had a lot going on and stuff happening that is beyond my control; plus my PA is taking time off for unforseen circumstances so you can imagine that everything is a bit mad right now! I think it's safe to say that I have kinda been neglecting my work...kinda... but you know what it can't always be the most important thing to me and I've needed/still need time to recover so.....

The thing is some stuff in my work just can't wait. If it is neglected, it fails and I can't afford that. So I have to keep going on despite not being able to carry on. It's mad. It sometimes makes me hate my job. I've been really really thinking these last couple of weeks....

Anyway, I've had great support from loved ones, especially my closest and most loved friends.

If only you knew how badly I needed a break.....

And then; a very dear friend who I must admit has been a rock to me these last couple of months despite our ups and downs gave me THE BEST surprise EVER last night!
He said I can choose wherever I want to go on a holiday!!!! I was elated! Seriously; it's just what I need. I've been on the net literally all hours of this morning trying to decide where to go but I just can't decide. I had some help from my facebook buddies but I'm still so unsure. I don't want to travel too far as it will only be for 5 days or so; I can't really go away any longer than that unless I wait a few months as I have been booked to present a few charity events and host a couple of gigs so I have to squeeze the break in somewhere in between!

As I was saying to my pals;

"I need some winter sun! And it needs to be BAKING so I am guaranteed a healthy looking glow! lol. And preferably a hotel with great spa facilities. And it has to be on, or right near a beach. Somewhere that is a quiet retreat but not too far from night life if I feel like a little dance! And lots of scenic walks and history/culture. But I'm not fussy or anything! looool. Seriously I am so indecisive it's killing me. And nothing is ever quite right....HELP!! xxxx"

Lol! Any suggestions?

Anyway I'm off to a meeting that I believe will prove to be very worth my while so let me start getting prepared. I won't elaborate; I now have a Members Only diary that I update so only my Member's know the little ins and outs...of a lot of things; personal and business. Cool huh?

Ciao!

Oh and don't be jealous of my little break; I was thinking somewhere in the Caribbean or a gorgeous European city..... ;)

P xx

2009-02-15T08:21:00.001-08:00

Sometimes, if I close my eyes and imagine hard enough, I am on a beautiful, deserted beach.

I can't hear anyone

To my love.....

2009-02-13T17:15:00.000-08:00

Happy Valentines xx

More Fool Them!

2009-02-09T16:15:00.001-08:00

Isn't it a shame how a rare few just don't realise your worth?

Oh well. Good thing there are many more who do ;)

Here's to moving on....

2009-02-08T08:11:00.000-08:00

Everyone makes mistakes.

I guess we can also hurt people without meaning to. We can also be really hurt, and although we know that person did not mean to do so, it doesn't take away the pain.

Sometimes it doesn't matter how much someone apologises, or tells you they didn't mean it, or that they would never do anything to upset you again. Sometimes it's never enough to take the pain away.

Only you are capable of doing that. Only you can finally get over something and realise that the past is the past and always will be the past.

But what you can do is learn from your experiences; learn from your hurt and learn from the effects your actions had on others.

And then it somehow becomes something beautiful. You reach an understanding and you realise that nothing, or noone else matters.

The ugly past no longer affects your beautiful present

You forgive. And you are forgiven

Here's to moving on

Here's to lazy days!

2009-02-04T07:35:00.000-08:00

Everyone keeps calling me and messaging me to apologise for not coming out the other night! They all said if they're honest they weren't tryna get stranded in a snow blizzard for nobody! Loool if it wasn't for some still making the effort despite the flipping snow, I wouldn't have turned up myself!

Ok so the new date is the 17th Feb, Vendome, Knightsbridge. More details coming soon...

If I'm honest I feel quite sick and rough right now; on top of that my friend managed to fracture his knee, so unless I'm going to go and help him out I don't see myself doing much physically today

Here's to lazy days!

P xx

Rescheduled! Typical!

2009-02-02T12:42:00.000-08:00

It hasn't snowed like that in how many years and it decides to on the day of my pre-launch for my website!! I was so pissed off I wasn't even going to turn up!! But a few people had made it down; some had flown from Paris and even the States just to see me, so I knew I still had to go down....Lets just say it was not one of the best nights I've had, but certainly not the worst. After getting through about 7 bottles of champs I started to lighten up! And Shereen-Crystal, a friend and amazing singer got on the mic and gave us goosebumps with her beautiful voice.

After everyone had left a few of us stayed in for a lock-in and continued to dance away; the DJ seemed to leave the best music for our little private party which didn't make much sense to me. Oh my goodness I adored the bongo player; he was fantastic!

Can you believe we then were stranded in the club because no taxi's would come out in the snow and noone wanted to drive! In the end I ended up paying a random guy who was the club owner's friend to make the dreaded journey; we actually got stuck trying to get up Richmond Hill and the car was swerving and sliding everywhere!

But........

My OFFICIAL website launch will be on Tuesday 10th, and hopefully this time there won't be a snow storm! There will be models from Brazil auctioning clothes and a fashion show, better weather, better vibes ;) I guess everything happens for a reason. Though I can't really understand why this had to happen lol. I feel bad because I didn't really mingle last night but it's only because I arrived so late and was dealing with loads of little things when I arrived and to be honest I felt quite agitated; the photographers were getting on my nerves (sorry guys) but getting snapped all the time gets annoying when you just want to chill out. So I think it's safe to say I wasn't the loveliest person...but understandably ;)

Anyway just make sure you make it down on Tuesday 10th and I promise you you'll have a fantastic night.

And I'll be in a better mood

I think I have pneumonia after a shoot I did on location; it was absolutely freezing but I had to just take it and strike my poses, trying not to shiver too much. Just seen some of the shots and they look hot so it's all worth it. The torture us models go through! The photographer was Squiz Hamilton; he's so talented and I love working with him.

Gonna cook some food now sweeties

Ciao

Portia xx

You got the wrong girls!!

2009-01-29T07:42:00.000-08:00

So last night went to the Neyo party. If I'm honest it wasn't that great. The best part was probably stealing Oreo cookies from Neyo's dressing room. And I'm not lying. So we got there around 11...crowd was already warming up and once masterstepz arrived the music was good so yeah there was a good vibe and everyone was getting down. But all I was really interested in was seeing Neyo perform. Well actually I wanted to see his dancers cos at his gigs he always has good performers. Obviously I had my all access wrist band but even that didn't prove to be much fun; the vip lounge and dressing room area was dead; the lounge more or less consisted of me, my girl Carmen, Danielle Lloyd and a friend, two randoms and a couple of photogs and promoters...there wasn't much going on in there so after claiming one of the dressing rooms and dumping our stuff in there we went back on the dance floor.

Then as the room started to get quite full we moved onto the stage to have our own free space to party. Neyo came. He sang one song. He went back to his table on the stage and surrounded himself with groupies.

Now to all the girls that were surrounding him; I am not calling you a groupie; you are what you are and to the girls that I knew and just wanted pictures etc it's all love. But you know who I am talking about.

Why are girls such let-downs these days? Are you really willing to sleep with someone as long as they are famous? Do you think it's a good look? Is that how you plan to get somewhere in life? Do you think you were the first girl for him?....that day?

I'm not here to judge, but I think girls should conduct themselves a little better. That's all.

Anyway, Neyo has never really interested me that much so when he said wait 2 minutes for a pic I was gone and straight back to dancing away.

Girls were throwing themselves over him and it wasn't really my style so I left the stage and went to meet a couple of friends that had just arrived.

My girl was still on stage, on the other side of the stage to where Neyo was sitting, oblivious to what was going on (as usual) and in her own little world dancing hard as she always is. So after about 45 minutes I came back to the stage to find her.

Couldn't see her anyway.

Asked Masterstepz "Where's my friend?"

Dunno

Asked my boy Gianno "Where's my friend?"

"Oh, that curly- haired mad girl? She got asked to leave the stage"

What??!!

Why on earth would she get asked to leave the stage? She's with me?? Lol!

So I went and asked security if it was true, and they were like "Oh, your curly haired mad friend?" (Yeah, they described her exactly the same way my friend did. "She got asked to leave because she was annoying Neyo"

Now something didn't make sense to me, because I know that she did not care about Neyo.

So I told them exactly that. And do you know what they said? "That's exactly why. He only wants groupies"

???????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I was like ARE YOU SERIOUS.

Well I went back on stage and purposely walked past Neyo who made this stupid noise like daaaaaaaaayyyymm and tried to holla, and I gave him the DIRTIEST look ever and said "wrong girl baby"

Haha! Revenge for my girl! I should have thrown one of his bottles of champagne at him!

I went searching for my girl and found her in our dressing room lol, the one we had claimed when we first arrived, charging her phone. I was cracking up. She didn't give a damn, cussed a bit but we were soon back on the dance floor laughing at the losers that will happily degrade themselves to be near a famous guy.

My girl was like, what did he want me to do, jump on him? Pleeeaaassse.

So the honest truth is the highlight for me was that and the Oreo cookies

I've got some pics but I'm not gonna post them all up now, but here's a few. And thank goodness for Raeqwon; noone need bother to take a camera out with them these days with Raeqwon about.

About to go on stage and sing the one tune that he bothered to sing
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With Toba and Mike L

Masterstepz playing to an excited (for nothing) crowd

Some chick actually threw her knickers on stage. I think that's the type of girls he wanted at his table with him

Danielle looks good as a brunette; with Raeqwon

With my boy Gianno who I hadn't seen in ages

All the pics of me and my girl are on her camera and I'm not with her now, so I'll upload them later.

Oh I got some of the pics of me and my friend at the Thriller Premier but I'll post them up another day too

Anyway before the Neyo party I had an appointment at the salon that sponsors my hair; Adee Phelan. Fantastic hairdressers, won loads of awards and have done loads of celebrities hair including Solange, David Beckham, Sean Paul, Erykah Badu, Thandie Newton to name a few. I wanted to get rid of my highlights so Lorraine told me to come in and within a few hours I had a gloriously glossy mane ;) www.AdeePhelan.com
Lorraine will be talking a bit about what she does with my hair and other celebs she has worked with on my website soon and all my Member's will be able to get a discount at the salon, so I'll let you know when to check that out. She's off to Dubai today for a well earned break.

Day before I had a shoot and a few interviews including a filmed interview for Streetz Inc. Not sure whether I'll post that up; it will def go on my Members Site but I may put a few snippets up on here or on the main website.

The shoot went well despite me being pissed about a few work-related discrepancies and the pics look hot. I met another model Sashia there who also provided some gorgeous pieces as she is a stylist. She was lovely and I just found this pic of us on her page

Anyway I shouldn't even be here writing a blog when I have 101 other things to do and I'm actually falling behind on a few things. So you can catch up with me later. I am shooting again tomorrow so really I should get to work and try to be in bed at a decent time for once

Speak soon

Love ya

Porsh xx

Non-Stop Work!

2009-01-27T01:45:00.000-08:00

Ok so it's 9:45 but I've been up since 7; I've already been out and just got back!

I'm feeling tired but excited; not long to go now until my event and a good friend just cheerd me up with a little surpise that will really make the night for me if it pulls through, so that put a smile on my face.

I'm now waiting for a flipping delivery; I am shooting a cover for a magazine today but me being a little Diva wasn't happy with only having the wardrobe supplied by the mag; so Urban Sweethearts have sent me some bits from Baby Phat and Karen Millen just incase I want more of a selection.... I didn't give them much time considering I decided on Sunday and the first chance they could post was obviously yesterday morning, but hopefully the goods will turn up soon and then I will make my way to the shoot! I was kinda supposed to be there at 10am, and girls I'm not encouraging turning up to shoots at any time you like, but they have been warned that I may be, ahem, a few hours late as I am waiting for delivery and have a couple of other things to do so it's ok. I don't want a reputation as a Diva! That is not a good look.

Yesterday I had a fitting with Georgie W Couture and I must say....wow! I was already impressed by a few pieces on the website but the gems she pulled out last night! I was more than happy and now have my two outfits for my event; now that is Diva behavior that is allowed; I tend to change at least once or twice at events. You have to! lol. I'm not going to spoil the surprise and tell you what I am wearing but lets just say I will look hot ;)

Thanks Georgie! http://www.Georgiewcouture.com

But what I am wearing is not up on the website so soooorreeee

I then took my Pa to Wagamama in Oxford St as we were both soooo hungry and felt like we had worked really hard trying on loads of fabulous dresses. I was in one of my weird crazy moods (the type of moods that you really need to capture on camera) and my Pa was gutted she didn't bring a cam because having footage like that would be a good bribing tool! But I wouldn't have minded if she filmed anyway; it just would have gone up on my Member's Only site so only they can see my mental side!

Anyway we had a good old laugh and surprisingly managed to stuff our faces (regretting it now as always)

The guestlist for the 1st is looking crazy! Sooo excited! Sorry I will try to stop banging on about it

Gonna love ya but leave ya

Portia xx

Ppffffttttt

2009-01-26T03:25:00.000-08:00

Don't you hate people that have to sleep with the tv on?

Woke up in a FOUL mood

Anyway, off to get my eyebrows done. Great

So tired.....

2009-01-25T15:04:00.000-08:00

I am shattered. There's so much to be done that my head is spinning! Now it feels like there isn't enough time and I'm starting to panic! Oh sorry, I'm talking about my website launch next week; I have less than 7 days to organise everything and there is still so much to do! And it's hard because it's not like I'm dedicating my time to the event; I've got loads of shoots that take up a lot of my time, plus 101 other things but I know it will all fall into place so it's all good!

I was supposed to have a meeting with PR yesterday but found myself throwing up! After some rest I woke up hungry, so me and a close friend went to a chinese in Edgware. I'm not usually a fan of chinese but it was a really nice night, plus it had a buffet as well as an ordering menu so that suited me! After about 3 plates we headed home (well actually we more or less had no choice but to leave as it was midnight by then and we were the only customers left!) And then back at the house we watched Carlito's way; I've only seen the end before, which is a bit silly, but luckily I'd forgotten how it ended and was still so shocked and upset when Carlito died! I almost cried!

Now I'm responding to about 1000 emails again which is like the story of my life. I was meant to go out with my girls but had to cancel as too tired and it doesn't make sense for me to drain what's left of my energy; I've got a fitting tomorrow with Georgie W Couture and then I'm supposed to be doing an interview with Akon. I was supposed to do it today but like I said I just feel drained and there are other things that need doing. So if I find the time (and the energy) to do the interview I'll go down with the film crew tomorrow and get some footage done. It wouldn't be finished until late though and I have a shoot Tuesday morning; if I was sensible I would be in bed by 10pm Monday night but when has that ever happened!

Anyway let me get back to these emails; I'll probably end up writing another little blog soon; just to moan about how tired I am or something lol

Porsh xx

2009-01-24T06:38:00.000-08:00

Hey my lovelies. Hope you are well. I am ashamed to say that I am in bed. I have been up from early and yes I have showered but I am now back in bed with the laptop dreading the thought of having to step out into that cold! Today all I am doing is flat hunting, looking for a couple of make up artists and going through emails; I don't have a meeting until 8.30 this evening so I will definitely not be leaving the house before that! My gorgeous godson is sleeping next to me; though he has been a little cheeky today he always gets away with it because he is just too cute!

Ok so the last few days I've just been shooting, with friends, meetings etc. The other day I did a shoot with the extremely talented Squiz Hamilton; the shoot was crazy!! I was covered from head to toe in silver body paint! The body painter Amanda is so talented; she showed me some examples of her work and I am talking some serious stuff here! She will soon be working on film-sets. Anyway I didn't want to look like I had just been eaten alive so we kept it slightly more simple and completely covered me in silver. When the film crew turned up they were shocked to see me like that! But I wanted to do something different; so many people are quick to call themselves models but apart from obviously having to have some good assignments under your belt you need to also do more than just try to look pretty or just stand there to call yourself a model! I wanted more of a range when it came to my work.

I almost didn't even go; had an awful night the night before, didn't sleep and woke up with one FAT eye (sometimes when I'm really really stressed or upset my eye swells up; don't ask me why!) So I was in a real bad mood and as I knew the shoot was going to be quite demanding and require a lot of creativity on my part I felt like I didn't have it in me and perhaps shouldn't go. But after not long I got my act together; you can't not turn up to a shoot; how unprofessional! So we drove all the way to Dorking ( the stylists drove down from Birmingham so I'm not complaining)

Anyway the shots look hot, even before editing! Some are a bit scary lol, but I guess that's all part of modelling. Thanks Squiz! And thanks to Amanda and Rachel for putting it all together.

Can you believe the silver took 3 days and 8 washes to come off! I swear!

The next day it was my best friends birthday; about 15 of us went out to eat then to a lovely little bar. It was so Sex In The City lol. Was a really nice night.

Next day it was the Thriller Live Premiere; I almost didn't go but after my day was over I found myself wih my girl in Portobello Road with a spare evening, plus she loves Michael Jackson and I had been invited by the guy who created the whole concept so I thought why not, let me go and support. It was down the road in Leicester Square. I wasn't really sure what to expect but I did think it would be more like a story of his life but it turned out to be more like a tribute. The dancing was great. Saw loads of people I knew and a few friendly faces o that was cool. The after party was in Cafe De Paris and that was even better! Latoya had just been thrown out of the BB house and came down to hang with her brother, Tito, who was already there as he came to watch the show.

Latoya is so lovely and sweet! When she first came to the table she caught my eye, smiled and waved at me! Now I'm really really not the type to get star struck, you can ask any of my friends who can't believe how calm I stay when I tell them all the people I've met, to me humans are humans lol, but this is the Jacksons we're talking about. And if I am honest I find them a little strange, slightly fascinating even. Anyway Latoya was a sweetie even though she didn't always seem to be aware of what was going on around her. My pics with her came out terrible but I might post a few up later when I get them.

Oh my goodness the mini Michaels were sooooo cute! I'll post up some pics of them too later; yeah cool I'm being lazy but I really can't be bothered to do it right now as I've just realised how hungry I am! Lol. When I'm hungry I can't function. Anyone who works or who has worked with me knows this; always make sure there is a contant supply of food. Conveniently most of my meetings are in restaurants ;)

So....yep the Premier was great, did some good networking and met so many talented people, so glad I got invited!

Next day, after eating with a friend I had a meeting about a gig I may be doing at the o2 arena, then at about 1.30am I decided to pass through Penthouse. Was a good night actually. Not really sure why I went but I felt like dancing a bit so went there dressed down in my flats and danced the night away! lol

Yesterday I was on the road all day working and then came to see someone who I hadn't seen for 4 whole days and missed like crazy lol. Pathetic

Anyway let me go and feed my hungry belly; everytime I say that I feel guilty as I KEEP on telling myself that every morning when I wake up I'm gonna work out hard. I am shooting a cover on Tuesday so between now and then I need to be hitting that gym!

Have a lovely weekend ;)

Portia xx

TUNES!!!!

2009-01-17T07:48:00.000-08:00

Should be working but instead I'm you-tubing.

No group compares to Destiny's Child. DON'T CARE what anyone says. And what female singer compares to Beyonce? She really has the whole package. If I was a jealous person I'd hate her. Ok. I do ;) But this tune is so touching and I'm sure it helped a lot of females who were in a similar situation to find the strength and courage to get away from it. Love you DC! Oh and I love the gospel singers at the end and Michelle really goes for it. Make sure you listen to it to the end!

Love this tune, love this girls voice. So husky and unique. Really feeling the lyrics as well. Haven't listened to this tune for ages so played it about 20 times today. I'm gonna post up me singing it for a laugh. Or maybe not. Ok that's Member's Only content

Now I'm not saying I'd ever do this to my best friend; if my girl's man ever tried it with me he'd get knocked out! But still this is a tune and you know it

To my girls xx

Hmmmm. Not even gonna say anything about this next one. Just know that this is MY tune

Dedicated to my one and only

RIP. Most beautiful woman, most beautiful voice in the world. Her voice is so soft it's crazy.

This song reminds me of school! I love it so much. And Mya is so beautiful. Plus her voice really is unique and I believe that is so important as a singer. People need to know who it is the moment they hear the voice. And I prefer hearing songs live

Anyway that's enough for now. Back to work. Plus I've gotta go and view a flat.

Ciao xx

Urb Magazine's Best of '08: Top 10 Girls of Kanye's Blog....

2009-01-15T10:19:00.000-08:00

And I am one of them! ;)

Check it out here; http://www.urb.com/permalink/4390/Best-of-'08:-Top-10-Girls-of-Kanye's-Blog.html

MY BLOG IS FEATURED IN TRESPASS MAGAZINE; CELEBRITY MODEL

2009-01-14T09:45:00.000-08:00

New business columnist for Trespass mag, Sarah-Jane mentioned me in her column! And to make it even better it was about this very blog that you are reading! Blogs are a great idea for many reasons; check out the article; http://www.trespassmag.com/?p=1562

BRAND NEW WEBSITE AND MEMBER'S ONLY SITE SOON TO LAUNCH!!

2009-01-12T07:50:00.000-08:00

SUNDAY 1ST FEB AT VENDOME,KNIGHTSBRIDGE

It's going to be a lovely exclusive and intimate event; guest list only. There will be quite a few industry heads so a great chance to network as well as party. One or two surprises on the night....free champagne reception for girls and VIP tables available.

Men, come and network, support my work, be surrounded by beautiful girls and party hard!

And women, come and network, support my work, look beautiful and party hard!

Obviously there will be press so dress to impress ;) And there will also be scouters on the night for various projects

I can't wait!

See you there xxxx

Nothing even matters

2009-01-05T09:01:00.001-08:00

What a surprise!!

2009-01-03T05:28:00.000-08:00

I got a lovely surprise just before 9 this morning....So lets just say I will be lazying around today...Yes me! Lazying around, not doing much. Well actually I stink because I just made fish. And omelette. And sausages....and for once it wasn't me stuffing my face. But apart from a bit of cooking I am chilling. My friend came back from holiday and turned up out of the blue and I didn't have a clue! And I love surprises; noone really bothers to surprise me these days :(

So that was nice

Anyway, gotta go

P xxxx

Portia Freno a housewife??

2009-01-02T12:41:00.000-08:00

For the past week, although I have been working; meetings, ideas, organising etc, I've still been in the house a lot. And the scary thing is I've absolutely loved it! I've been helping out, cleaning, looking after my Godson, cooking, taking early morning jogs (ok that was just the once) but I have really been playing "housewife". As in staying in and looking after the house, the kids lol. It's been really nice though; I've been surrounded by people I love and who love me and there is never a dull moment in this house! Hold on, just got to check the oven..... K I'm back. I'm making a macaroni cheese due to popular demand. I used to make them all the time, though usually with chicken, veg, rice etc, but today I just made a macaroni as all the kids were complaining saying I haven't made one for ages. Well sorreee lol.

Here's a pic of my Godson and I; I took this last night and yes I look rough but it's not about me ok? So ignore me.

Ok I left for a while but I'm back now. Just stuffed my face despite telling myself that I wouldn't eat any myself as I want to get in shape for my launch party but oh well. It's time I faced the truth; I will always have a big appetite and I will never be able to diet. My Godsons older brother was begging me to put a pic of him up on my blog so here it is. With the macaroni

And here's cutie pie who is also sooooo greedy, looking delighted at the sight of food and ready to attack with his, ahem, knife

Seriously, he eats as much as me. I am sure if I had let him he would have finished the whole thing. Like I would

So, am I ready to say goodbye to the inustry, my career, parties, planning, meetings, shows, events, shoots, auditions, stress etc?

NO WAY

What I do know, is I play mother/housewife very well and I can't wait until that day comes. Obviously I am nowhere near ready; I have to reach the height of my career until I start a family, and I want to be able to give my family my all and not have to worry about anything like money or work. I'm not being naive; I know it can't always be like that for everyone, but I am going to make sure it is for me! I admire all the hardworking mothers out there, although it is expected to get on with it and be a mother, I've seen examples of mothers slacking so I have a lot of respect for those who do a good job.

Anyway, anyone hearing me talk like I am broody or something would slap me! Especially anyone in my team; they'd be like "Portia are you mad?".

I guess that's what I'm working for; to be able to have a big family home, holidays, no worries. To be able to look after my whole family; my mother, my brothers and sisters. Money does not solve everything but what it does do is give you a whole load of stress free opportunities!

So, I've set up a plan. I guess you could call it a life plan. Some of you might think I'm a weirdo, but I am sure many of you have prob already done that yourselves. It makes sense. I'm not going to tell you my life plan though lol, cos it includes all of my business ventures plus you might try to copy it hahaha.

No but seriously, you probably would. It's a pretty good plan ;)

I didn't wish any of you guys a Happy New Year did I? Sorry! Well I kinda did in my Xmas post but not on New Years day...I didn't do much. I was supposed to go to church with everyone; I think they went to Wembley Stadium and apparently it was amazing...I'm really quite annoyed with myself for deciding not to go, but I had told my best friend I would chill at hers and we would just eat and get merry; I didn't want to rave or be out with randoms on New Years as I don't really feel that that is what t is all about....You can go to a club with your friends any day but at the start of a new year you should be reflecting, chilling; that's what I think anyway. So I asked my best friend to come down to the house and come to church with everyone but she was complaining about how far it was!! Considering she lives in St Albans and I was in North London I thought that was a bit of a cheek! lol. So I went down to hers and we just relaxed; ate too much chocolate and chilled watching tv and that. Nothing to shout about, sorry guys. What were you expecting? Pictures of me out on the town, club hopping my way through about 6 events? Yeah ok, I did consider it lol. But I came to my senses ;) Had a meeting with my PR agent the other day and there will be less partying for me anyway!

What are you doing down there?

This year is going to be crazy. Watch this space ;)

Portia xxxx

BE PROUD OF ME!!

2008-12-31T01:02:00.000-08:00

Because I am! lol. So yesterday a very close friend of mine's mum, who is also like a mother to me, told me that I must be downstairs by 7.30am the following morning to go running with her! I was like "yeah that's cool with me, I can do that! When will we get back? Like, 7.45?"

Ha!

She laughed for about 5 mins then said we will be running for an hour and 15 mins!!!! And I knew she wasn't joking because she is a very healthy woman who gets up at the crack of dawn to exercise and pray, so I knew I was in for some serious torture.

I called my friend who is chilling in the sun abroad (alright for some) and he laughed down the phone, telling me I'm not capable. Well that just made me even more determined; I'll show him!

Making things harder for myself as usual, I didn't fall asleep until about 4am, which I guess isn't too bad for me, but when my alarm went off at ten past 7 I wasn't a happy bunny. I looked out the window and noticed that there was ice covering the cars in the drive, it wasn't even completely light yet, but even worse still, my friends mother's car was not in the drive!!

Now, I could have praised the lord for letting me off and jumped straight back into bed; in fact, I almost did do this until I realised that I had another 20 mins to get ready and knowing my luck she would come back 2 minutes before we were due to go all ready and pumped up, find me snoozing and never believe that I really did get up.

So I thought cool, let me prepare myself for the worst (Her coming back)

I splashed cold water on my face, brushed my teeth, pulled on a trackie and sat watching Eve on Sky planner..........

.......Ok.......8am and Auntie (that's what I call her) still was not back.

BUT; Did I crawl back into bed thanking my lucky stars?

NO.

I went jogging alone. Yes. I took myself out of the warm, into the spiteful bitter cold, and went jogging!! Me!!

You're probably thinking... So....??? But seriously this really is not my sort of thing, I mean, I'll get up early for something worthwhile like work or flights. But jogging?? Really? Be serious.

So the road I was on is like the longest road ever, so I thought I'd run all the way around which might not sound far but it's about a mile run, but I ended up going to Valley Green Walk and running through the parks. It was quite nice actually; everyone I passed said good morning and were either walking their dogs or putting themselves through torture like I was, so I wasn't alone!!

The mad part is I actually enjoyed it! I warmed up after a few minutes; the only thing I regret is going out without an i-pod or some music cos I think that would have kept me going for longer.

Haha Auntie just came in the room ready to go jogging! How funny! I told her I had already been and she gave me the look! I'm so glad there are witnesses (I made a show of going and made sure a few people saw, or heard, me leaving the house) Anyway she said she's proud of me :)

To be honest I'm kinda glad I missed her because she is now going jogging for an hour and 15 mins, when I only went for half an hour! Ok, 20 mins. But that's only cos I got bored.

It gets better....

When I got back, I did some crunches! I say "some" because that way you will be more impressed than if I tell you how many I actually did.

Just be proud. And I might actually do it again. I'll film it next time for a laugh

Ok, I promise you there are much bigger things for you to be proud of me for...I promise!!!!

I was gonna take a quick nap before beginning my day but I just got told I've got to look after my little Godson while Auntie goes jogging; he's about to wake up and I need to give him a shower and make him breakfast. I love him so much, even though he is extremely cheeky.

Gonna love ya and leave ya

P xxxx

Happy Xmas xxxx

2008-12-24T12:24:00.000-08:00

I wasn't supposed to write on here until I was given the go ahead to reveal certain news to you all, but there was no way I could not say Happy Christmas to all my fans!

I was going to post up a video blog but I am a blabber mouth and it was too tempting to just start talking about all the exciting projects I have in store for you, so I thought it better I just leave a little note to wish you all a fantastic xmas.

I know you are all a little mad at me; I have been getting too many emails asking me where I'm at and how come I'm not keeping you all posted; it's so hard at the moment because I can't reveal what I want to, and as for my private life, I haven't the time to let you know what's going on! And I would never have my PA or anyone else do my blogs for me, so I'd rather keep quiet for a while and come back with a bang, rather than bore you with posts that don't really say much.....I don't have time for much of a personal life at the mo...and those special few that are a part of my world HATE being spoken about....(I've got in a lot of trouble in the past :( ) So it's quite hard for me as I know you all like to know the ins and outs but my loved ones come before my career....

Anyhoo....was feeling quite unwell but I'm not too bad now....

Have a wonderful, wonderful Christmas, an amazing New Year...and remember 2009 is a fresh start...Keep things moving...Keep working hard. Keep praying and striving. Nothing happens before it's time. You will get what you deserve; all the hard work will pay off.

I'm feeling so good! Almost lost a very dear friend and I am just happy that we were able to make amends and be back to normal before the end of the year....It was horrible not speaking....

I love you all

See you in the New Year!!!! (at my OFFICIAL Website and Member's Only Site Launch Party)

You'd be very silly not to be there ;)

I'm going to leave you with one of my favourites at the mo. I suggest you open a bottle of Pinot and play it 30 times, while slow dancing around the room

P xxxx

I'm back!!!

2008-12-04T06:47:00.000-08:00

Wooooow.

It's been crazy this last two weeks; CRAZY!!

I don't party that much, seriously, but I have been booked for so many appearances and asked to host so many events/parties that I have been working 24,7!!

Last night I was booked to host at Penthouse with Kano; I had quite a bad cold though so looked a little like Rudolph. I had a really nice time; I was shown a lot of love! I was being snapped all night and everytime I left VIP to use the bathroom, I was getting stopped by fans asking me if I would take a picture with them. It still feels weird to me, I can't get used to it! One girl was actually saying how Kano and I are her biggest favourite stars and kept wanting pictures. Again, very strange.

I mean, there's me, walking down Bond St, pulling a flipping suitcase, in a bad mood cos I just got of a train, and people are stopping me asking if I'm Portia Freno. I'm thinking damn! I can't keep on walking out of the house looking like crap anymore! :(

But it's all good.

Kano didn't perform last night. He said there were a few discrepancies...I had a good time anyway but I know quite a few people were disappointed.

Quit snapping me ;)

This girl really was a true fan; One time she bumped into me and she was like "oh my God, I bumped into Portia Freno!". I'm not even joking. ????

With my boy Elliot (Napper)

Filming for BET and some other channel but I forgot which one

Keli and Laura

Filming at 4am...Shouting out my fans on Yo! Raps

Just P...

Last Sunday I was booked to appear at 20 in Kensington; had the best time I've had in ages!! Everyone's hitting me up now like "Yeah that's the spot" lol. It was just such a nice night; wicked music, great vibes, great people.

Told you the music was wicked

My table is always bubbling!

Don't ask

The club look after me well and I have no reasons to complain. Being paid to party and have fun. Hmmm. It's cool with me. But I don't want to do too many appearances; though I do intend on hosting at 20 this Sunday due to popular demand! You should come! It's a great club.

With Gaia, the boss

I've got some really exciting new projects! To be honest I'm feeling quite unwell and its 4am so I'm planning on getting an "early" night, plus I like keeping things secret until they are in action...so I'm not going to elaborate now. I'm confirming a few things tomorrow and over the weekend so you will soon know. I've got a vid to post up for you of me after Penthouse last night but again, too tired to be bothered to upload it. Damn, I'm sounding like a right cow aren't I? Anyway I reveal a few things in the vid...I'll post it 2moro when I get the time.

I'm off to the gym tomorrow; it'll be the second time this week!! Be proud of me; this is coming from the girl who actually joined a gym twice and within both the 6 month-membership periods managed to go no more than 2 or 3 times. And those times consisted of me using the sauna, steam room, jacuzzi, and eating in the cafe. So, like I said, be very proud of me. I'm kinda lucky to get away with not working out, especially as I am SO greedy, but I am shooting for a series soon (more details on that coming) and I have a role where I need to be in PERFECT shape. It's a bit unrealistic to give myself a week to tone up but oh well. So now I've got to work out with a cold but I am determined. Just hope I don't end up in one of the many yummy food places surrounding the gym instead. Wish me luck. Saying that, I've got a good trainer and motivator who is EXTREMELY PUSHY, ANNOYING, and MEAN, but I am grateful for him ;)

Oh yeah; the other day I followed Jagged Edge to one of their gigs to support them. I already knew Wingo from meeting him at a career development centre in Atlanta. So I went with my girls; my best friend Laura, my girl Sisi and a few of her friends.

It was a MADNESS

One of the band members, and I'm not going to say who, got sooo drunk it was unbelievable. He turned into a completely different person! He tried to bring the bottle of vod onto the stage and was wrestling with it in the VIP before going on! It really is true that drink is the devil; he turned so nasty and started attacking people; even his own band members!

I've always loved Jagged Edge, but it was disappointing to see that. Obviously there is a lot more but I've prob already said too much so I'm gonna leave it there. It wasn't Wingo by the way; he's cool

Wingo, Levi from Blackstreet and Kyle. Waiting to go on stage

Nadia, Sisi and I

Sisi, Wingo and I, posing for different cameras lol

Yep. We're mad

Oh I forgot to tell you I lost my Pinkberry!! :( Hundreds and hundreds of videos, pictures, voice notes.......GONE!!! Can you believe I didn't back them up!! I kept meaning to... Anyway I was insured and got my lovely little Pinkberry back (I love her soooo much) but that's not the point. I lost everything. Some lucky bugger is gonna get some useful info... to think of all the numbers on there as well!!

Anyhoo, I need to try to sleep.

Translation; I'm coming off this now so that I can go through my emails ;)

Look out for what's coming up....

Portia xxxx

Check Out My Celeb Status!!

2008-11-28T06:37:00.000-08:00

Just a quick one cos I'm mad busy and about to head out; There is an exclusive charity fundraiser for breast cancer coming up that I got invited to, it's being covered by OK mag, and I just looked at the event page and there I am listed as a confirmed celeb attending! Celeb huh?? Loool. Loving it ;)

Check it here and scroll down

http://www.skiddle.com/whats-on/London/20-Kensington/Carolines-Campaign-Celebrity-Fundraiser-Event-/11260688/

Things are moving

Got so much to write about but no time! There was a madness with Jagged Edge the other night as well but you will just have to wait :(

Oh, but come and party with me this Sunday; I've been asked to host a night at 20 in Kensington and it will be really good! I'm going to go there after passing through the Sunday Show.... For more details and to get on the guestlist check my facebook or contact my PA Rebecca Riley RebeccaRiley@hotmail.co.uk

Love ya

Ciao xx

2008-11-20T04:42:00.000-08:00

Hey lovely people!

I have come to accept that I have a problem; I seriously suffer from insomnia.

Even though at times I might feel excruciatingly tired I still can't sleep. So I find myself up working, or listening to music.

I wouldn't mind so much because I don't tend to need too much sleep to be able to function, but I am also a model and in front of the camera a lot; whether it's a photoshoot or filming, I can't be having eye bags!!

I might go on a little break straight after the event; just a few days. Dubai or something. Well I need to get that holiday glow back anyway!

It's been a crazy last couple of days. Or maybe strange is a better word to use. Some things have been very upsetting, some have been annoying, but because of work and so much other stuff going on I've been unable to really let it get to me, and also unable to keep you guys updated.

What really, really did get to me though, is when a very nasty person played an evil trick on me;

She pretended that a friend of mine had passed away.

What kind of screwed up mess is that????

For 30 long, awful, devastating minutes, I was left to believe it. I do not feel to get into the emotions that I went through myself and for the family; all I will say is that some people really need to go and see someone. Urgently. But then for people that messed up; is there any hope? I felt sick with disgust.

Talking about mental people; I've had more than my fair share of them this week! I've had more fake profile's set up, and hear the latest! A fake email address in my name! Yes! PortiaFreno@gmx.com. Funny right? It's even funnier because my people know who it is, so we do feel very sorry for her, but at the same time it is a hassle to think that they are emailing people pretending to be me.

I was discussing it with a few people, including Sarah-Jane Adams, a journalist and editor-in-chief for Flair magazine, who said that even though everyone says imitation is the highest form of flattery, she sees it as the lowest form of unoriginality.

Totally agree.

I've also been having some discrepancies regarding some of my images; it seems that some of my Member's Only and also personal pics of mine have got out. My team got onto it straight away but there is only so much they can do; they can't find every single site that they are on!

I was pissed off for like 5 minutes, but then after speaking to a few people including some who are extremely big in the game, I was over it. They told me to get over it and get used to it; they also informed me that it would get a lot worse. After going on to say that pictures a lot worse of Tyra Banks, Halle Berry, Lil Kim etc got out and didn't stop them, I thought FOR REAL! Do I really care? The fact that they are going out of their way to get pics of me and the fact that they are pretending to be me, setting up email accounts in my name etc, just shows how well I am doing. If I was nothing would they not be indifferent? So I went from being pissed off to being excited that I seem to be following in some of the biggest stars footsteps! lol. So let it continue. I guess it's free exposure.

I was youtubing and came across this video clip; which further confirmed to me that it is all part of the "fame game" and is inevitable; people will always try to hurt you or stop you on your road to success. It is sad but it is true.

So thank you Meagan Good; this is from a charity campaign but the first half really related to what I am talking about, and the rest is just useful advice anyway! Which I am sure all of my readers already know.

So I guess I've just got to take it all in my stride and also ignore it; it's a good thing I haven't got time to sit there and go through all my Google hits, lol. Though I am sure it is mostly good you never know....but does something negative said about you by someone who doesn't even know you mean anything?

Any of you girls, and guys in fact, that experience any type of unfair nastiness, or even freaky stalkers lol (yep, I have obsessed stalkers) DON'T WATCH IT. I promise you, it really means you are doing your thing! And clearly they are not! Or they wouldn't have time to fixate on you or try so hard to tarnish your image.

It's all good ;)

The date of my event is the 7th December. More details to come...But keep that night free....Make sure!

I have a couple of meetings about tv programs and films, so that is great. I promise I will update you but I just don't like to talk about things until after I've done them lol. I'll be like "Oh and check me out on this program" ;)

I was really annoyed because my video blog on Yo!Raps got deleted; well all of their videos did but it's been uploaded again now so you can check it out here.

http://www.yoraps.com/blogs1.php?subaction=showfull&id=1226403869&archive=&start_from=&ucat=25&

There will be another one up in a few days for you.

Just found out I am a judge for a fashion contest

http://fashioncontest.co.uk/thejudges.html

All the other judges are hugely successful and extremely knowledgeable about fashion and the fashion industry, so I really hope to learn a lot from them. I also feel privileged that my opinion is regarded as highly as theirs! Judging isn't for a while though; but time flies these days so it will be happening before you know it. You can still get involved in the contest and there are some amazing prizes which include getting involved in Wimbledon Fashion Week, so I suggest you check it out.

Anyway guys, I'm gonna love you and leave you because I have 101 things to do before making my way back to London.

"You are better; the best even. The rest even know that which is why they strive to opress you; they know the only way they can stop you is if they kill your own will to succeed. But like MC Hammer; they can't touch you"

xx

Hilarious!!

2008-11-17T11:19:00.000-08:00

A friend of mine emailed me this and I just had to post it up; I find it hilarious and today has been a day full of soooo much amusement that I wanted to share at least some of the joy. Thanks Tunde!

A Young man called Ron wanted to buy a Christmas present for his new girlfriend. They hadn't been seeing each other for very long and she lived a considerable distance away.

He consulted with his sister and decided after careful consideration, that a pair of good quality gloves would strike the right note, not too romantic and not too personal.

Off he went with his sister to Harrods ladies dept and they selected a dainty pair of fur lined quality leather gloves. His sister bought a pair of knickers for herself at the same time.

Harrods had a free gift wrap offer but the assistant mixed up the two items, the sister got the gloves and Ron got the knickers.

Good old Ron sent off his gift wrapped present in a parcel with the following letter:

To my sweetheart, I chose these because I've noticed that you are not wearing any when we go out in the evenings.

If it had not been for my sister I would have chosen the long ones with buttons, but she wears shorter ones (which are easier to remove).

These are a very delicate shade, but the lady I bought them from showed me the pair she had been wearing for the past three weeks and they were hardly soiled at all. I had her try yours on for me and she looked really smart in them even though they were a little bit tight on her.

She also said that they rub against her ring which helps keep it clean. In fact she hasn't needed to wash it since she began wearing them.

I wish I was there to put them on for you the first time, as no doubt many other hands will touch them before I have a chance to see you again.

When you take them off remember to blow into them a little bit because they will be naturally a little damp from wearing.

Just imagine how many times my lips will kiss them during the coming year.

I hope you will wear them for me on our next date.

All my love Ron.

P.S. My mum tells me that the latest style is to wear them folded down with a little bit of fur showing.

Looooooooooooooool. Funny right?

Seriously, I have been amused all day; some people/situations are hilarious. I love laughing, and today people have been giving me the x amount of reasons to do just that! Hilarious.

So, I want all of my readers, to have a little giggle. Go on! Think about all the things that amuse you or make you laugh! Think about something ridiculously funny and crack up. You'll feel so much better after, whether you were already in a great mood or not.

You only live once! Make sure you're laughing through most of it ;)

Portia xx

Ummm p.s. I'm not saying that little story was thaaaat funny. But I am sure you can find something that is xx

2008-11-16T16:32:00.000-08:00

Chelsea is too funny; and T.I too cute!

I never used to find him that nice; my girl was always in love with him and I never really saw the attraction.

But after this clip I think I've changed my mind! How adorable is he? And he doesn't look as scrawny as he used to cos that was what used to put me off him. I'm feeling his attitude as well; he can laugh at himself and I like that.

Shame he's in a "situation" lol ;)

2008-11-15T09:44:00.000-08:00

I wonder what will replace Sex And The City?

Nothing, I believe

It's a good job I don't get bored of watching the episodes over and over. But I have to admit, I am kinda panicking! What do we do now? It's only really sunk in for me!!

It. Is. Over

Call me late, perhaps I was in denial for a while, and too busy to really be too affected.

But now I'm in shock!!

Even Family Guy, All Of Us, America's Next Top Model; they are all weak replacements

I can only weep, and hope, that they realise how much this is affecting us all and bring it back!

Who wants to start a petition? Oh I bet there are already plenty on the net. Let me go and check and join....

Do I have Problems??

2008-11-14T13:27:00.000-08:00

Right now I feel Happy, Upset, Confused, Excited, Amused, Eager, Impatient, Patient, but oh SO GOOD!

I love it and I hate it! It's like having constant butterflies in your stomach....Aaaaaahhhh!!

Anyway, apparently I have problems. I CANNOT relax.

Here's an example;

I had a FULL PAMPERING DAY booked at the Spa yesterday. I was supposed to be there from 9am until 5pm.

So, I woke up around 7.30. Well in actual fact, I woke up at 5:45 cos I couldn't sleep, then went back to sleep kinda, but got out of bed at half 7.

My plan was to have a quick shower, eat some porridge, then go straight to the Spa.

But of course I had to send a couple of emails first. C'mon!! Be fair! So after showering, I sent and read a few emails. A few emails led to a few more, then a few more. Anyway, I didn't actually reach the Spa until 10am, but luckily just in time for my first treatment; a full body massage. An hour of luxury right? Wrong. I could not relax! I was thinking about the event, and the emails I had read, and wondering if things were ok.

Then my phone starts vibrating in the pocket of the gown I had hung up.

My therapist is like, "Portia, you can keep your phone in the dressing room, I promise you it will be safe as it is only your dressing room and noone will go in!"

I'm like "No you don't understand, I NEED my phone on me. I WANT my phone to stay here with me. Got it?"

Looking at me like I'm crazy, my therapist continues to massage me.

"Vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr vrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr"

Yep. Phone vibrated the whole hour.

As soon as she's like "Ok all done" I jump up, grab my gown, and get back to the missed calls.

So my therapist is already thinking I'm a freak.

Then, I had to bloody get off my phone so she could give me a facial. I couldn't wait for the foot massgae, so I could multi-task.

I have to admit though; that was one amazing face massage. I fell asleep!

During lunch, I realised that I really should try to relax for the rest of the day. So I had a glass of wine, and tried to not feel guilty that I was getting pampered whilst my PA worked her arse off

I spoke to my girl, she's like "Portia. This is WHY you have a PA. Just flipping relax. How can you feel guilty for your PA doing her work? You NEED a break so you can frigging function. You are not normal."

Friends always tell it how it is

So I'm thinking ok, cool.

Got my foot massage and IGNORED my phone.

Got a manicure and IGNORED my phone

Pedicure, same thing

But then I realised what I was doing to compensate; I was boring the flipping therapist, talking away non-stop about bloody work!

But I don't think she was that bored actually; she seemed to be enjoying all the madness I go through. She even told me that I've inspired her to follow her dream! She said she wants to help children with behavioural problems, and thanks to me she's gonna go for it!

Once I got my eyebrows done, I'm told I've got an hour to go for a steam, jacuzzi or whatever, before they start on my hair and do my make up. Ummmm....

Whaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat????

See ya later!

I was off!!

I practically ran back to the dressing room, mad at myself for already getting carried away with this whole "relaxing" thing

The therapist is calling after me, like don't I want the rest of my treatments?

Errr NO!

Despite all this, I had a lovely day. Seriously.

SERIOUSLY I DID!

There's just too much to be done that's all. And BlackBerry's really screw you up because your work follows you EVERYWHERE.

Anyway, this goes to those out there that find it hard to relax; just read my post and see how crazy it sounds. You'll soon wanna chill out more

And for those of you who find it easy to chill out

Whatever

;)

Portia xx

WTF????

2008-11-14T11:28:00.000-08:00

This industry can be mad.

Let me rephrase that; Success can be mad.

It seems that with every good thing that happens, something bad follows.

The more things that happen for you, the more people suddenly pop out of nowhere, wanting to be your new best friend.

Now I am not a naive person; the only people who I tell everything to are the ones I grew with, my closest friends.

But I am sick and tired of fake arse people.

Sick and flipping tired, of giving so much to people, then them turning around and stabbing me in the back.

Sick and tired, of people just wanting to be associated with me, because apparently I can "help" them.

My ex used to always tell me, that I get too close to people. I'm too cool and friendly, and not suspicious enough.

Well why should I be? I thought like attracted like; I'm cool to them and be a good friend to them, then they'll do the same right?

Ha!

How right was he. He said I 'm naive. I've realised he's probably right.

Well not anymore. I've had more than enough. I'm dropping a few people.

Things are on the up for me. Besides my friends, I need a team I can trust,a team to grow with. I now understand why some people who are mad famous go crazy. They probably don't know who to turn to, or who to trust. It's mad, everyone probably thinks they are so happy and popular, but I've seen it for myself, they're not. I would hate to be that famous.

What a shallow world we live in.

What a shame that I am already experiencing the rubbish that all this can bring.

Anyway.........

As I'm writing this my mood has already changed. I'm a bit weird like that. I can't stay upset for long, even if I am hurting like mad. Even if I am so so angry, it only lasts a second. Life's too short! And there's too much good happening! So, I had a lot more to say on what I was just talking about, I was going to elaborate, but I can't be bothered now! I'm over it!

I'm gonna post up all the details of my event coming up very soon! I can't wait! I haven't organised an event for a while; it's about bloody time I did another one!!

Have to go

Portia xxxx

2008-11-13T09:28:00.001-08:00

2008-11-12T09:14:00.000-08:00

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Sorry. Just mad busy and stressed.

Is it sick that I love it?

Mind you , couldn't do it without my assistant

Godsend ;)

Oh I'm so excited about the stuff that I am busy with but I can't share sorreeeeeeee

Maybe another day

Peace xx

Oh! And I Forgot To Say....

2008-11-11T07:47:00.000-08:00

....Just found out I got the lead female role in a new film.... ;)

Not filming for a while, but I am still mad excited. It's a very challenging role and I can't wait to get started.

Watch this space

BACK TO BUSINESS!

2008-11-11T06:23:00.000-08:00

Woke up this morning feeling GREAT. Here's a quote for you guys;

So that's what I am doing. I'm dancing in the rain ;)

(Thanks P)

Ok, so it's back to mad business as usual. I've been working from home for the past few days. Everyone was on at me to stop running around and just chill; obviously I couldn't just "chill" and feel like I wasn't doing anything, so I worked on my Member's Only section of my website. Sarah-Jane Adams, editor of Cause A Scene Magazine amongst many other things (Sarah is a power woman which is why we get on ;) ) is designing my site; I've already seen the template and I'm loving it! People, you NEED to sign up as a Member. You'll get to see exclusive personal video blogs that noone else gets to see, as well as have personal discussions with me. I'll be posting up my deepest thoughts, new sexier images ;) and lots of advice for aspiring models. As well as industry news etc. It'll be really cool. So if you visit my site http://www.PortiaFreno.com and click on the Member's Tab, I'll email you as soon as it's live.

As well as that, just found out I am going to be organizing an event with Napper. It's going to be a showcase and Fashion show. Lots of networking, lots of scouting and lots of fun ;) Of course, I'm getting it filmed, so it may be on Yo! Raps, or the reality show The Diva Diaries. So that's got me mad busy now. I'm really looking forward to it; the date looks set to be Dec 6th but I will keep you posted. Richard Blackwood is hosting so you know it'll be big! I want some great designers for the show; nothing tacky or ghetto. So we are all on the lookout. I will let you know who the PA's are when we decide, book and confirm. How exciting!! So basically, between now and then I'm not sleeping again, cos that's how it always is with events.

I will be holding a casting for models for the event very soon

Looking forward to this weekend; my friend is flying down from New York so we are gonna party hard!

And....my EXCLUSIVE video blog for Yo! Raps is now up! Check it out here

www.yoraps.com/blogs1.php?subaction=showfull&id=1226403869&archive=&start_from=&ucat=25&

Look at me in the same news strip as 50 cent! Loving it. Looooool.

Like I said, it's just the beginning. This is nothing yet ;)

All of you, my friends, my fans and supporters, you got me through this storm. Obviously I'm still upset and hurting, but seriously, it's mad how much love you guys give me. This is my way of thanking you all as I can't thank you all personally. You are great. I love you.

Anyway, let me get back to work

Portia xx

WATCH THE VID, SUPPORT MY GIRL AND SUPPORT US IN THE DIVA DIARIES!!

2008-11-10T05:34:00.000-08:00

Ayi Jihu has been named the Chinese Madonna and has performed for over 2 million people. Many predict she will be China's first true crossover artist.

Knowing her personally, I know she will make it to the top. Her energy, dedication, talent and drive will make sure of it. Plus she has a fantastic manager in Stephen Eagle; how could she not make it?

I am working on a reality show with Ayi and I am sooo excited. I feel extremely privileged to have this opportunity, and I will be in China hopefully by the end of the year, to continue with filming and also a few other projects.

Below is her promo vid for "Try Me". And you might see some little snippets from the Diva Diaries too ;)

Enjoy

Portia xx

GHANA HERE I COME!

2008-11-09T13:08:00.000-08:00

I miss Ghana :(

The only time I went was for a fashion show for Baby Phat but I had like 9 days to do what I wanted and had soooo much fun. The beach, the people, the food, the clubs. I've been wanting to go back for New Years ever since but have always been too busy. This year I might be in China over NY, but if not, I'm definitely hitting Ghana. I suggest you all do too ;)

Portia xx

It's just one of those days.....

2008-11-09T03:00:00.000-08:00

Hmmmm...

One of those days, nights, weeks. I dunno.

THIS IS JUST THE BEGINNING....

2008-11-08T11:07:00.000-08:00

Just the introduction to my video blog, exclusive to Yo!Raps, which will be live on the site from Monday.

Those who know me personally, know that I look like shit, lol. But this is straight after the incident and 2 straight days of no sleep, so no wonder I wasn't feeling, or looking myself.

Despite all this, I'm still the FIRST model asked to do a regular video blog for the site; a site that is No.1 for industry/celeb/hip hop news.

It's just the beginning baby

Portia xx

WOW

2008-11-07T18:58:00.000-08:00

This will make me stay away from the cheeseburgers for a while. Or maybe not. But still. It does put you off temporarily

Still trying to smile Despite the rain

2008-11-07T11:15:00.000-08:00

Thank you. You know who you are xx

http://www.zshare.net/audio/5102155557d2982c/

MAJOR Ups and Downs....But It's All Good!

2008-11-05T15:55:00.000-08:00

Been a mad last few days. A mixture of very very bad stuff and extremely good stuff. I suppose that's supposed to balance things out? But it doesn't, not really. The really bad stuff just breaks me down, but all the good stuff keeps me going.

>I was feeling like shit; couldn't sleep, and I was so annoyed as I had been asked to be a guest presenter for Pop-Rocktic goes Hollywood and I had to miss all my beauty appointments the day before because I was recovering at my friends....

But, that leads onto the really good stuff. Have an amazing new PA who I couldn't be more happy with. I was panicking that I wouldn't be completely sure on any of my finalists as that is what I am like..But this one passed her trial with flying colours. So that's one thing to be grateful for.

Another? The fact that my hair is sponsored by Adee Phelan http://www.adeephelan.com/ Check out their clientele and their press; they are an extremely well established hairdressers in London. And now Lorraine, who has won an award for Southern Hairdresser of The Year, will be looking after my hair. Lorraine's clients include Erykah Badu, Sean Paul, Thandie Newton, Solange, SugaBabes to name a few. And now moi! lol. So I was hooked up for Pop Rocktic last night; got some subtle highlights which looked really cool; apparently they are going to go brighter on me next time! Well I trust them because they're fantastic stylists so I'll leave them to it! Hit me up for my stylists number, or check out the site, give them a call and mention me; I'm sure they'll hook you up.

I was a bit of a diva for the event last night; had 4 changes! One for filming,two for stage and one for after. I was dressed by Pinx; they dress a lot of celebs and WAGS lol. The woman Yan, knows exactly what she is doing and hooked me up with some dresses that were new in. At first I wasn't entirely convinced by the pictures my PA forwarded me, but when I went to the store for my fitting the clothes were beautiful; the pics did them no justice. And the clothes are so reasonably priced; check them out online http://www.pinxonline.com/

Last night was amazing; I was so impressed by the talent. Oh my days where do I start. Jnay was off the hook!! And Jason Jermaine rocked the crowd as usual. I had a fantastic time.

I did some backstage interviews with the both of them, and also with Charleene Rena who is a wicked performer; very provocative and energetic; all the guys (and I am sure even a few girls) were in some kind of trance, lol. So look out for the interviews on either Diva Diaries, or Yo! Raps, or my website PortiaFreno.com.

Lot's of backstage footage got filmed, but as you know, that is MEMBER'S ONLY ;) I got a little tipsy at the end, and yes, it got filmed. So if you want a laugh, sign up and I'll notify you when it is all live. But well done to Rochelle Bennet and her team for organising something so positive and successful. Can't wait for the next event.

I had a lot to do last night, filming for Yo! Raps which was separate to the event, and obviously due to the incident that happened prior, I was feeling distracted. But I tried to put it to the back of my mind and just enjoy myself.

Most of my team were there; my PA, the stylists, my film guy, and my photographer, so I had a good time and a laugh. I got Jay Stewart on camera, and he likes to remain faceless, so he's begging me not to post up the footage....Hmmmm I feel a little bribe coming...

My first vid blog for Yo Raps will soon be up! I'll make sure I let you know as soon as it is.

My images from my last shoot in Miami arrived, and there are about 1800! So I've started to go through some for my merchandise and my Member's....You will not be disappointed ;)

So many of you are hitting me up regarding the modeling workshops; I promise I will get back to you all. I'm sure you understand things are just hectic at the moment. The next date will soon be confirmed.

Oh and finally, and most certainly least, looooooooooooooool to all the messages I've been getting for the last couple of weeks. I know, and I agree, that this chick is crazy. She is flipping OBSESSED! It used to annoy me that she was copying my every move and word, but now it just creeps me out!! I too feel sorry for her. You saw the latest right? Loooooool. Poor thing.

WE CAN ACHIEVE SO MUCH MORE IF WE JUST ACCEPTED THE WAY WE ARE, RATHER THAN BEING ATTACHED TO THE WAY WE WOULD LIKE TO BE

In this case, the way she would like to be is me! Which would be flattering if it was someone that I liked or respected. But what a loser. And for what the majority of you are asking me; the answer is no, not at all. Pathetic huh? Damn, this girl should be paying me!! And what a BEG FRIEND. And I hate that saying. But it fits her perfectly. Awww, let her do her thing, I'm sure when she looks in the mirror and realises she doesn't know her own identity, she must feel a little shame. Because noone in their right mind can do what she is doing and not feel any shame. Girl where is your self-respect!! And if all of you, my fans, supporters, friends are hitting me up regarding this embarassing situation, I know that it is not me or my problem.

Anyhoo...gonna go back to these merchandise shots

Sorry that my blog started off on a bad note, oh and ended on one lol, but I'm just keeping it real with all of you. If I am totally honest it left me feeling suicidal, but I realised, with the help of my friends, and work commitments that kept me occupied, that my future is too bright to waste on jealous ex boyfriends or haters.

Do your thing! Forget the haters or negativity! What doesn't kill you will only make you stronger. Apparently. To be honest my body is killing me right now and I'm feeling pretty weak. But mentally, I can take over the world ;)

I love you

Portia xx

MORE MAGAZINE FEATURES!

2008-11-01T08:53:00.000-07:00

Just posting up my latest features/interviews for you to read and enjoy. I have an interview in Cause A Scene magazine; a teenage magazine. http://www.CauseASceneMagazine.com. Feel free to leave your thoughts underneath. Thank you so much for all your comments on my Yo! Raps interview; it's the most popular article on the site! lol.

Oh and I am also featured in the Fashion and Beauty section of UrbanWorld; read it here:

http://www.urbanworld.co.uk/fashion/content.php?id=1905

Really busy today so I'll have to get back to you later

Love you all

Thank You and Keep Supporting

Portia xx

Good Stuff!

2008-10-30T10:39:00.001-07:00

Hey my darlings, how are you all?

I have been on the computer literally all afternoon, so I will keep this one short as my eyes are starting to play up!

I just finished writing an article for Eclectic mag; it's about love, so make sure you check it out. I'll keep you all posted on when the next issue is out. And it's not just for us girls, despite me being a woman and writing it from my point of view. I'm sure all you men out there will appreciate what I am saying.

For some reason I am being flooded with features and interviews; so I did 2 today. One I did last week should be up over the next couple of days....I'll let you know ;)

Don't know why you lot are all so interested in me lol.

A girl told me today that she thinks I am so beautiful that it makes girls wish they were guys. Looooool. I found that one funny. Forget being a guy. Then I wouldn't be able to drool over Tyson Beckford. Or maybe I'd stand more of a chance? That's according to some rubbish rumours I've been hearing. I refuse to believe it.

Ok, I've also been going through a few pics that I shot the other day with Jay Stewart. Can't wait to shoot with him again and get some more shots for my Member's Only. My website is still under construction http://www.PortiaFreno.com but will soon have all the Member's features up on there. How exciting ;)

I have been asked to be a guest presenter for an event on the 4th November. I was very interested as it is showcasing amazing talent and has a hollywood theme ;) I forgot to tell you guys about that so I am inviting you now. For more info on that email me. It'll be a lot of fun and the tickets are really cheap. Oh, and there is free champagne!

I had a wicked night last night! Me and my girl had too much fun and ate sooo much as well. I feel like a right pig but I don't care cos thinking about last night I am still laughing. Love you Lis xxxx Oh yeah and we made up for the eating loads by going on a little mission (we walked to the shop to get more to eat)

I'm feeling really good guys. And I hope you all are too. Life is too short to not be. I have my family, work is going great, I have loads of amazing friends, my love life is fantastic... ;)

I have a lot to be grateful for. So, though it might bore you, I will make sure that I always remember that.

For some reason I can't stop smiling!

Oh and it looks like I may have a fantastic new PA on my hands! The trial finishes on the 4th so we will see who makes it but I think I already know....

Anyway, I am off to meet with my photographer

Keep smiling; I am!!

Portia xxxx

I'M FEELING GREAT!!...I LOVE MY GIRLS!! ;)

2008-10-29T07:50:00.000-07:00

Woo Hoo!! Talk about a change of heart!!

There are a couple of reasons why I have already pulled out of the temporary zombie-like depression that I fell into a couple of days ago.

Firstly, and most importantly, my girls. I love them so much. I honestly do not know where I would be without them. I'm usually quite a proud person; when I am in trouble or need to ask for a favour I usually refrain from asking them and if they ever find out later they usually go mad at me. It's not like I don't already know that they will be there for me, but I just don't like to put my problems on to other people.

But...Obviously when it comes to love and stuff like that, they are the first people I call. :)

So. Last night my girl cheered me up by cooking me a meal and we had a little talk, and she made me realise a few things...I was already feeling a lot better and was going to stay at hers that night so that we could open a bottle and continue with the gossiping....until...............HE called ;)

Yes. HE. Many of you already know who, but for now he will remain anonymous. Because that is just how I am ;)

But what matters is that he called, and we spoke. And then we met up! And it was beautiful....but odd.

Now, I am not going to get into why it was a bit odd; it's not that it was odd between us, but something quite odd happened. So now I am itching to meet up with my other girl so we can gossip and she can tell me what she thinks....because if I am honest I don't know what to think!!!!

I'm not meeting her until 8......seems like a lifetime away :( Even on the phone we are like "No we can't talk about it yet, it's got to be saved for when we meet up, we need to discuss it all from start to finish." Lol. Girls, I know you can relate.

There's nothing better than a catch up with your girls. And because of my crazy life, you could not speak to me for only a few hours and I'll still have loads to update you on!!!! Guaranteed!! Sometimes I don't know how my friends keep up. And my memory can be so bad, that half the time I'm asking them what happened to me! I'll be telling them a story, and then they'll cut in like "No P, that's not what happened. You did this, then that, then so and so said that" and I'm like, oh yeah, for real.

Oh I love it.

Sometimes I think my life is too crazy, too random, too screwed up

Other times, I am SO GRATEFUL for my life, what I have achieved, the opportunities that come my way, the experiences I've been fortunate enough to have experienced.

And I am extremely excited about the future ;) I get butterflies when I think about it, lol

Anyhoo.....so, like I said, something rather odd happened, and now I am left thinking....

Wish I could share all my thoughts with you guys sometimes...

Can I thank you for your messages and emails regarding my last 2 posts; it's mad that so many of you that I have never met, may never even meet, genuinely care and can send me advice that actually benefits me and that I can be grateful for. Thank you ;) Mmwwaaaaahhhhh

I've got to get back to work. As usual. I've got a few people on trial to be my new PA; one is already really impressing me over the others; she is doing a fantastic job.

I'm hungry, haven't eaten yet :(

Love you

Portia xx

2008-10-28T05:13:00.000-07:00

Didn't sleep. Was in too much flipping pain. It's not even a joke. You're probably thinking well you never sleep anyway Portia. But this is different. I really wanted to sleep; anything to take my mind off the hurt.

Anyway; it's a new day, got a lot of work to do, and even though I really can't concentrate, I'm going to do my best and just throw myself into it to try and forget everything else. It's just so hard when you're whole body, soul, head, mind everything just hurts. If that makes sense. Just feel weak.

Sorry to be all negative; usually when something really hurts I just push it to the back of my mind and try to forget it. But it seems like an impossible task right now.

If I continue to feel like this I will try not to write on here; don't want to depress you all

Gonna try and get back to work

Portia

Real love only really hurts when you lose it

2008-10-27T20:55:00.001-07:00

It's not like I haven't felt like this before. I've felt a lot worse; a lot worse has happened.

I think it's the way it happened, and how suddenly it happened

I feel like a piece of me is missing. The mad thing is, I didn't realise how big a piece of me that was. Until it was gone

And it is gone. I can feel it. I hope that I am wrong.

But I feel that I am right. My instincts told me yesterday, and I knew

I feel empty, and numb.

If someone had told me say half a year ago that I would feel like this if ever a situation like this was to occur, I would have laughed in their face.

But now I am experiencing it. And I'm not laughing.

It's 4am. I should try to sleep but I can't. I should at least get some work done but I can't stop asking myself "why on earth did I do that? Why do I insist on pushing the best people away?"

Until I can find the real answer to that, I may never change. And I can't keep hurting myself, and I can't keep hurting other people.

My closest friends, and those in his circle, knew how much he meant to me. But now that I may have lost him, I've realised I loved him

And those close to him and I know how screwed up that is

He was more or less perfect

All I have now is this sick feeling in my stomach; since that phone call in the restaurant last night

All day today, during the shooting and the filming I couldn't even concentrate properly; I didn't perform my best. My mind was somewhere else.....

I feel sick, and I'm not going to start going even deeper into my feelings

So I will do what I do with most things that really hurt

Try to forget it

Portia

Sorry guys, haven't forgotten about you...

2008-10-27T17:42:00.000-07:00

Ok so today was a normal day; shooting and filming. I shot with my own photographer www.myspace.com/js_photographer Jay will be shooting anything I do exclusively because I love his work; he's very talented, hardworking and creative, and when it comes to my business I only work with the best or those I trust. Check him out, add him on FaceBook, Jay Stewart, and if you mention me I'm sure he will do you a good rate. And he will definitely make you proud ;)

The rest of the week is gonna more or less be the same for me, so apologies that you haven't really heard from me since my birthday, and you may not really hear from me much this week cos I've got quite a bit going on

I'm also feeling a little down. I miss someone very dear to me; and being the person that I am, I was threatened by something that could have been amazing, and was a total bitch to prevent being hurt

Let's not get into that

Love you all

Portia xx

BIRTHDAY GIRL GOT SPOILED!!!

2008-10-23T07:52:00.000-07:00

I want to thank you all so much for your birthday wishes; and I've never received so many gifts before!!!! My fans have sent me some unbelievable stuff!! From gift vouchers and bags, to Spa retreats and holidays!!!! Can you believe it? I was so shocked! I was feeling a little down for the first part; everyone was jetting off and leaving me to go to places like Barbados and Dubai :( and I was jealous because I had to stay and work...but then my girls made sure I had a wonderful night! Well, from what I can remember. And I was too busy celebrating with the girls that I didn't have time to check all your lovely messages...So I was just speechless when I saw them all and then my PA called me telling me about all the gifts that have been sent and I was like YEEEAAAAHHHH! Thanks ;)

So, I've been spoiled like mad and I'm feeling like a lucky bitch right now. And Kanye sent me a birthday message to my email as well! Either that or he asked his PA to send me it, but either way it's a good look when someone as big and busy as him finds out it's my birthday and takes the time to make sure I know he knows, lol. I made you a link so you can see it cos obviously you cannot have my email details ;)

http://www.kanyeuniversecity.com/scripts/viewemail.php?TR=YzM5MzMwNDksMzI0LDkzMDcsYzA=

So, for the last time, thank you to all my friends, fans and even those random celebs that emailed me, sent me gifts, left me comments, and for making me have a wonderful time. It's not over yet though!! I'm celebrating this weekend or next weekend, or even the weekend after, lol. As soon as I have proper free time I am going to invite you all out to party with me; look out for the invite ;)

Only 22 years old....I feel so much older sometimes...

Love ya

Portia xx

I JUST DON'T STOP!!

2008-10-21T06:11:00.000-07:00

Yet another feature....Check it out :)

http://dynastyseries.com/2008/10/dynasty-series-spotlight-portia-freno/

And you guys are flooding me with emails and messages to wish me a Happy Birthday for tomorrow!! Thaaaaannnnk yoooouuuu!!!! Love you all ;) To be honest my birthday is not a big deal to me this year; it seems to be more of a big deal to everyone else!! I'm non-stop, and I'm going to be working as usual..got an interview and an event to attend....But it's all fun so it's all good.

Speak soon

Portia xxxx

AS PROMISED...

2008-10-19T17:00:00.000-07:00

....My latest radio interview. Enjoy xx

Missed me??

2008-10-19T11:49:00.000-07:00

Hey people,

Sorry but this is going to have to be a quick one again. I have 25 minutes before I have to be somewhere and I have to reply to emails and stuff... Sorry to be all boring on you! But what I have been busy doing has been far from boring...... Guess what?? Remember the other day I got asked to do a feature for YoRaps.com? Well....the editor wrote to me saying that they had so much good feedback on me that they would like me to do an exclusive regular video blog for the site!! This is big!! That site is like no.1 for HipHop news and the latest happenings in the industry, and they want me to feature regularly! Well obviously I was flattered and said yes. The only problem I had at first was the fact that I will have a personal video blog on my website for my Members, but it's cool. The Members will get something completely different and just as good ;)

So now, a lot of the time that I'm out or attending/hosting events I will have my film crew, lol. And I will just be generally keeping everyone up to date on the world of Portia

Which, at the moment, is just a blur of the usual; filming, shooting, planning, eating, chilling etc.

I had a shoot yesterday for some of my Member's Only pictures and Merchandise. That went well. Managed to wrap it up in just a few hours. I kept it natural though; didn't cake myself in make up and made it more about me and my personality, so hours wasn't spent on hair and make up which I guess contributed to it being over so quick.

Had a few other shoots for my website and promo, and the rest of the time I've been with old friends...

So it's more or less been the same old....

Anyway, I need to run through my emails and listen to my latest radio interview; I'll post it up for you in a bit

There's so much more we could learn from just accepting the way we are rather than being attached to the way we'd like to be

Just a thought

Portia xx

Oh and if you missed out on the feature, you can view it here http://www.yoraps.com